hooheeHA

2006-12-31T22:56:00.000+08:00

gone with the wind! hahaha.. miss chia's phrase.
if you want anything, find out yourself. happy new year..

2006-11-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

i am a new person :D

2006-11-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

HEH! THANK YOU GRACE FOR PAINTING&DESIGNING MY ROOM WALLS!!!
THANK YOU LYNETTE FOR LOUD ENTERTAINMENT AND FOR PEELING MASKIN TAPE!!!!
THANK YOU FOR STAYING LATE TO HELP ME!! THANKS A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE THE BOTH OF YOU MORE NOW! HEH!!!!
LYDIA!!

my legs hurt! hahahaha.. spent the past 2 days busy painting walls even though i was interupted today to go Orchard do CIP in the morning till early afternoon. CIP was bleah. i'm pretty sure ange and i had the lightest tin around.. but i won't elaborate on it cus its not good to publicise the bad things that you have done. HEH :D

thank you grace&lynette/lynette&grace(i'm sure lyn wants her name first anyhow.LOL) again. i just bathed so i'm not smelly anymore!

2006-11-16T23:04:00.000+08:00

heh. sorry lyn! i dont feel like blogging anymore.. so maybe i'll just take a break for now. but you can send me emails! LOL. i like emailing nowadays.. hahah. save up on the sms. and i think we can keep the "are you very lame" cousin joke between ourselves. LOL. dont feel like writing about my private life in cyber world. contact me when you are back in civilisation! smiles.

2006-11-06T17:52:00.000+08:00

lynette is mad. HEH :D happy holidays! badminton is not an exercise! gah. lynette has a red cactus and she's singing to it. a damn horrible song. i think it can even sing better than her. i hope it wakes up and screams at her. ROAR!

hahaha.. played monopoly just now. hahaha.. it gets boring after a while. lydia wants to do something REPRODUCTIVE(haha!).

LYDIA IS LEARNING HOW TO PLAY CHORD C ON MY KEY-TARR. ;D YOU STUPID, IT MEANS GUITAR. I'M GOING TO TEACH HER CHORD G NOW. PLEASE WAIT.
OH I TAUGHT HER CHORD G AND CHORD D AT THE SAME TIME. SHE'S STRUMMING THE SAME CHORD(HORRENDOUSLY)AWAY.NOW SHE'S GOING TO LEARN HOW TO PLAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEFORE MY DAD COMES IN AND SCREAMS AT THE NOISE. *SMILES* ;D

OKAY, SHE DID IT. BUT IT WAS A NIGHTMARE. I HOPE SHE DOESNT TOUCH THE KEY-TARR EVER AGAIN. LOVE.

2006-10-24T11:17:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all ye muslims out there(((: enjoy thou festive season!

i truly believe that absence makes the heart grow stronger.
i truly believe that there are friends in the world that will walk with you through the rest of your lives.
i truly believe that happiness can be found in this world(((:

the no.1 person i wanna appreciate is LYNETTE SOH: heya gal(HAHAHA)! i really didnt see you as a long-lived friend in the past.you know how we hated each other.LOL.but now. HEH. this conception is entirely changed! thanks for always bringing me much laughter and joy. thanks for trusting me with your secrets! and i really respect you for not telling me grace's ice lemon tea shirt mistery!HAHAH. you are the one whom i am willing to travel an extra mile if you ever needed it(like the recent east coast thing.literally a million miles)!HEE. and thanks for listening to me man. and i am also truly sorry for whatever shit thing i've said in sec1,sec2,sec3 or sec4! how we ended up as friends again is a mistery to me. but who cares. thank God for you. yes, LOVELY DUCK!hahaha.. dont be affected by any THAT MOUTH comments.YES?!
with a great big chuck of love,
LYDIA <3

to GRACE YEW: heya! the no more demure flirt! hahahah.. i'm sorry for racking this demure flirt thing up. but i think it will always be in my head for the rest of my life! HAHAHAH. its so funny! anyway, do visit our blog k! jumpingbeanies! :D my biggest regret this year is to not make an effort to bring us closer. yea.. let me change it during the hols eh! close up the distance between us. you are one furry(hair) ball! hee :D i love you!
truly, LYDIA <3

to ZHI XIN TEO: i dare say i knew you more this year than all of our previous years. hahaha.. both of us have become a better person from our sec school days yea? thanks for showering me with your love! like lyn says, all of us expresses our love differently. and thanks for loving all your friends, including me,(HEH HEH) in your own unique way. thanks for entertaining me when i'm bored and studying with me when the exams were near. hahahah.. i think we can almost be like slacking partners :D yea.and thanks for being such a great friend who listens and giving me simple advices like "slap her/him".HAHAHHA.yea man.. THANKS A LOT for trusting in me with all your pissed-off moments. you know how much i really love you? ok. stretch out both of your hands. and its bigger than that :D
i love you,
LYDIA <3

to EVON LIM: OI! hahaha. you are so rude. but we are so alike! hahahha.. i mean. in terms of social ettiquette. LOL. the chances of you seeing this is so slim. but you have a great part to play in making my 2006 a happier and bearable one! to the failed exercising schemes to the walking and your whining in vivocity. hahahah! i'm glad cus i've known you better this year. HEH. the good and the bad. you have been much support to me in my darkest days. and the bearer of good news from me. thanks for making whatever situation you are in sound like shit so as to make me feel better about mine. HAHAH! i love you man! and stop scolding me and i will stop scolding you! hahahah..
with love man,
LYDIA <3
ps: i like your mom! hahahah!

to RYOUKO: YO! parang shah! hahahaha.. you are such an entertainment ya know (((: i extremely love the bitchy-uno session at your house! hahaha.. you really an asshole this year! making me feel suicidal every moment you open your mouth! hahaha.. you know why! super slacker. and really eh. THANKS. for making me walk in NGEE ANN POLY and CHINATOWN in the hot sun. all your schemes i have already uncovered! thanks for bringing me to all the NICE food in Singapore. i'll go japan in 2008! hahahaha.. more night cycling coming up? yesterday was fun! THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME FIND MY HANDPHONE LAST NIGHT IN THE DARKNESS OF PASIR RIS PARK!hahahah! you are so nice sometimes. I LOVE YOU although you are really an asshole! and shut up with your super bitchy-bimbotic accent :D
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE,
LYDIA <3
ps: the Christmas party is a MUST HAVE eh!

to AH PONG ANG: we both dont look like linda goon ok! i will die! hahahah.. you know if you ever need a friend, i'm like(bimbo), always around for you! i'm sure the next year will past before you even know it. yea! even if your brother went missing i will try to help. LOUY ANG the peng you! HAHAHAHHA! congrats on your marvellous results! just ignore bio when i say this. heh! THANKS FOR HELPING ME TO FIND MY HANDPHONE LAST NIGHT! you are a nice little friend to have! thank God for you, my dear PONG.
wo ai ni(my chinese ROCKS!),
WEI WEN <3

heh :D i want to also thank my cj friends man! without them, school will be so unbearable! thank you my dear ANGELINE, XILING, SARA AND TASHA! for laughing with me. i love you guyssssssss! <3

yuppp. this week so far have been so fun-filled. its the official last week of school!wheeee!sometimes i feel that this blog can't show the real happiness that i've felt in whatever activity that i was engage in.like no matter how i describe it, it just cant depict the exact way i feel. i need to get a sun tan soon.

2006-10-18T12:55:00.000+08:00

ry finally came back to singapore! much reluctantly. i swore she almost dragged me round the whole of CHINATOWN yest! yikes.chinatown point is like the most boring place that i have ever stepped into. so disgusting. walked to liang court and the haze was bad. sniff. met up later with peiting and yunxuan for dinner at some chinese restaurant called "Qun Zhong" i think. their food damn nice man. but full of oil. kns. i almost burst off my skin after eating.

lalala.. oh! and that woman brought back this humongously sugarly sweet ball and once you pop it into your mouth, you can't swallow your saliva. HAHA! damn funny. i think my cheeks are sagging today.hahahahah! we tricked peiting to pop one into her mouth after dinner! LOL. i think she took the mrt with a tumor in her mouth. HAHAHAHAH!

and no worries man, pt! i'm sure you will do alright for your promos. i will be waiting for your sms on monday and after that we can go airport and eat POPEYE! yupp. and i finally saw you in your pj uniform! hahahaha :D i have missed you lots! if we can only relive our sec4 moments. ponggg.. and thanks ry!!! for the monokuro boos and that diabetic sweet!

anyway, gave school a miss today. was quite tired after last night tour of chinatown. and i didnt do my integration homework. yupp. mrs koh is back from her whatever pregnant leave. what a change from dear old smiley, everything-is-okay, mr yee. pootttt.. i just made angeline wait at the bus stop for me in the morning and she missed school too! hahaha.. gave me a lecture just now on the phone. gah. but she told me that tues in HARI RAYA PUASA! heh heh heh. HOLIDAY!!!! school is such a bore man.

gab and i just found out something interesting today. he is actually working in the old police academy which is just opposite my school. wow. meeting up for lunch soon! heh!

2006-10-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

i think my mind is playing tricks with me. STOP IT
and sometimes i feel the sudden urge to shout out some vulgarities. GAH.

of course i controlled this emotion.
oh heck. i'm so exhausted. and even after sleeping for 3 hours, i still feel exhausted.
it's hard to try to please the whole world
sometimes i feel like i'm overdoing it. and damn. i'm tired man.
zzZZZZ

i dont even feel close to God anymore. i think i have just lost my strength, my zest.
dear God, where are you? i'm a big wrecked right now.
everything feels so different
i wonder if i had done things differently when i was younger, perhaps everything would not be in such a mess.
and my mind would not be twirling so much
but who will understand?
i feel like saying this. i hate blog.

i'm not depress.

2006-10-10T16:50:00.000+08:00

H A H ! ! ! ! ! !
i'm liberated mans. i'm over with promos. YAYYYYY!! :D what more can i ask for? cheeks.
anyway, i wanna thank God mans. really. without Him.. i would have died when promos got started and History.gosh.i almost BK-ed(beng kui-ed)i panicked on saturday and sunday cus i didnt study anything at all.i mean.. nothing went into my thick skull! frankly, i'm not very interested in Cuba or Korea!!!! i'm fine with communism. HEH. anyway, yea. really Thank God. history was no problem due to his grace, wisdom and mercy to me. yupp. smiles. God created history mans! who can be a better teacher than Him? Amen.

thanks mans! to zXIN and lyNETTE! i think i consulted them with many many questions during the promos period. and they taught me! willingly of course. HEH HEH :D helped me to understand all my stuffs better and i even bombarbed zXIN's house on my Chem Day to ask her chem qns. of course, studying with her always end up with talking cockles. but.. there's always a time when we are uber serious rightzxzxz! hahaha.. ahlianzxzxz@hotmail.com yea! and this two lovely ducks popped by on sunday before my history exam! and i swore i got a shocked! i thought they were some Jehovah Witness people trying to spread their propaganda and i didnt want to open the door! was just waiting for them to leave. HAHA :D thanks for your Frodo Chocolate and that jelly-like thing((((:

yupp. and big thanks to my MOM&DAD! :D they gave me the biggest support mans((: i love them greatly! :D heh.

at zXIN's house now! watched this dvd called matchstick ma.quite nice la.but i fell asleep in the middle of the show was damnnn tired! met this xIN after my chinese mocks(yucks)!gah. oh! yest went to vivocity! super big mans.. i think it will be a nice big mall to shop next time. lalala.. gonna enjoy my post exams now. and pw is HORRID! kill the man who implemented PW!!! HOO HOO HOO!

2006-10-01T20:01:00.000+08:00

today is children's day mans. wonder how many people remembered it besides those freaking children who most probably have a holiday tomorrow.i mean.. people like me havent celebrated children's day for almost 5years.and its a damn long time cus it's almost 1/3 of my life.anyway, all the soon-to-be adults out there, HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!!!! i'm not deprived, grace.

kinda shocked me to see that the month had come to october.where did all the time go? and i really hate maddona for singing what "time goes by, so slowly.." she must be some loaded rich ass who is probably saying oh-my-gawd! when is the time going to move faster! shut up big mole.

anyway, there are some things which i realised/did last month which are really gonna benefit me in the future and give me some kicks of life:
1. any shows which colin farrell acts in really sucks. the newest colin ferrell movie, miami vice was so horrid although i thought jamie fox was as cool as ice. whereas colin farrell is so ass-like ugly. and before miami vice the last colin farrell movie i watched was phone booth which was so disgusting i almost cried after watching it! the whole movie took place in a PHONE BOOTH! how interesting can it get. yucks! it was the most boring movie i have ever watched besides the BLARE witch project which i unfortunately watched it maybe a gazillion years ago. it has to be super bad to remember it till now after a gazillion years.

2. i secretly wished i was living in the world of snoopy and gang(peanuts). ok.i know this wouldn't help me in any kind but i felt it was worth mentioning. i want to have a dog like snoopy.

3. while i was suppose to study with zxin during the promos period, i got bored and wrote grace a postcard. HEH HEH HEH. ok grace, i think we should keep this between you, me and zxin. but it cracked me up when i wrote it! hahaha.. zxin thought i was a paranoid freak to think that your dad would flip open the card and exclaim "that lydia needs counselling". just for laughs mans :D

alright. there was actually more that i wanted to blog maybe next time. hahaa.. there's some video i want to watch right now. toodles!!!!!!!!! (i sound like some kind of bimbo! yucks!)

2006-09-21T12:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYOKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! birthday msg in da EMAIL! check your mail! hahahahaha.. :D :D :D i solemnly misses you(((((: have great fun today and EVERY OTHER DAY!!

gah. i wished i was able to go and watch the banquet with my cousins. this DAMN promos. DAMN chinese which is tmr. makes me feel DAMN guilty if i step out of this house by one inch. at least gp and econs are down. bang bang.

you know, one should not infer too much into simple little things. a person who dwell too much on minor little problems have set his life to ultimate misery. a mountain would be made out of a molehill. and he would be squashed under the weight of the mountain. i mean, how the HECK are you gonna enjoy life if you spend limitless time look into the depts of the misery. and then you become a damn wierd person whose very actions would make the hairs of others stand.those who have hurt you, be it superficially or emotionally, just let it past. i mean, if you dwell on it. HAHA. you have just strapped yourself with a time bomb. and there you go, telling others the same problems you face day after day. it would not be a probelm unless you make it a problem. what a bore it is to strike up a conversation with you. cheers then to the problem dwelling kid. maybe one day, i will flip through the papers and lo and behold. and this kid's pale miserable-looking face would be staring back at me. RIP.

2006-09-11T15:03:00.000+08:00

i'm quite sure no 2 families are alike and i seriously wonder whether there are people outside who as like my brother. sighs. dont know what to say about him la. haha. i guess nobody knows what's his current status in society(including me).except for his jiang-yi-qi friends. yupp.

alright. celebrated LYNETTE SOH AND GRACE YEW'S BDAY YESTERDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D :D :D hahahahhaaa.. ange bullied me today! hahaha. kept on poking my butt! and the LINE OF THE DAY IS.. ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE(ange cant sing)! :D grumps. and we drew a scene of the marine life on the back of the foolscape! sing sing sing. ok la.. better go and do some work. 9 more hours to the end of 11 september 2006! better make use what's left of it! grah.

funny how we were once so close. and i guess it's just the way life goes. life moves on. and it moves on fast. maybe one day we will each get carried away with our own lives. it's gonna rain. let it rain(snow), let it rain(snow).

2006-09-03T18:07:00.000+08:00

omg. OMG. it is not good to see this OMG word. cus it usually comes with bad news. and to see this OMG word in bold means its gonna be a deadly news. wow.
oh goodyness. 2 more freaking blasting darn DAMN weeks to promos. i havent even bring myself to start studying like FULLY(at all). ahhhh. my future is at stake. shoot me.

i feel myself wasting my life away. i mean.. i just ate CHA KUAY TIAO just now and i feel like an oily man. kanfaiolngligai. out of point. BUT YA. i feel much happier and satisfaction of roaming around singapore than to be cope up in macs or home pouring over ECONOMICS(which i dont really enjoy doing)! YEAH. or even CHEM. i still remember ry's wonderful words. i mean.. i'm not gonna use the LITMUS paper to test whether what i'm consuming is freaking acidic or alkali! and MATH and HISTORY.

i should shut up and get to studying. alright, SHUT UP, lydia. yes. i still want to earn LOTS of money and get a good life for all the people around me. ahhh.. for money. for happiness. for a future. quit rambling. STUDY. ughh. i dont really like foreign talents by the way.

2006-08-15T18:35:00.000+08:00

i think it's the weather. i miss crescent very very much. hahahaa.. really.the warmth and friendliness.i miss walking to school with grace and zhixin.and zhixin will have really bad hair.i miss ryouko always trying to murder me in her many ways.i miss 4s2.i miss attending lit and physics lessons.i miss the genuity of people there. oh yessss.. ultimately, i miss crescent lahzxzxz :(

beloved part of 4s2(((((((((((:

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D i like playing that!

MR MACHO LIM. all of us have a crush on our physics teacher! HAHAHA!

having fun and ry's hse during SLEEPOVER :DD (grah! i want another bitchy session of UNO!)

grins. my nice nice NICE eng teacher and pongpong! (i look like a boy. BAH)

zhixin's hse is damn cosy! hahaa.. check out that 2 gila momoks! smiles.

see me smiling? it is because of them(plus grace of course):D

and THEM! yes. i'm smiling cus of YOU(:

these are the love of my life(((((((((((: my joy and my source of strength(besides God and my parents :D, of course).i'm going into hybernation now! freaking damn promos are in 4weeks time.wow.how exciting.truth be told, i'm almost half a body outside cj! yayy! hooray! i hate studying and going to school.
my brother is right.. we dont need to please everyone. otherwise out lives would suck quite badly. live for God! yes.. promos, i'm gonna give you my attention now, sadly. you rob me of my life and you make me feel like shit. thanks, promos. gosh! i think i need a ward in the IMH.

2006-08-10T10:04:00.000+08:00

yoyos! i am up early today. for some unknown reasons :D gonna meet XIN later for a movie and mug,mug,mug(cup). sharing songs with her now(: LOL. today is a darn good holiday. tomorrow shld be a holiday too! but arghsss. fat hope.

alright. 7 Aug was beautiful :D :D :D i'm 17! whoops.
THANK YOU MUMMY AND DADDY AND BROTHER (KOR KOR)! for the nice card and cake! and the wonderful dinner at the hokkien restaurant at ANG MOI STREET! hahaha.. it was loveeee!!
thank you IT34 for the enthusiastic 1million birthday songs. hahahaha.. funny :D and that GOO-GOO chain&black pig(: loveeee ya lots :D
thank you to my front row! hahahaa :D ange, xl, tash and sara!!!! my day was made full and happy! sara and tash gave me a BIG BOX of hello pandas, potato salad and indian YUMYUM potatoes.burp :D ange actually gave me this really nice pencil box and a beautiful butterflies pencil!(: and xl, for a cute albino cat. HAHAH :D love love!! <3
thank you rose, for the lovely postcards and sweets :D
and of course.. my old pokpok friends(: (: (: triple million smiles. day wont be completed without them! grace called and sang me a birthday song. quite retarded. hahaha.. but quite touching :D HEE. on the 6th, had lunch at nydc with lyn, XIN and kake. grace couldnt make it :( hahahhaa.. thanks a BUNCH for the wallet and the shirt. HEE :D i can't smile without you((((((:
on the 7th (my chronology looks wrong), had dinner with ry and evon at some hong kong place in cine! YUM again. the mango ice was WHOA WHOA WHOA. HEE. took alibaba neos. havent taken that in a thousand years! hahahaa.. it was lovely! special thanks to evon who came for dinner even though school ended late! LOVEEEEE <3 ry gave me a memorable fright of my life. hahahahah.. pig(:
thanksss to my aunt carmen for the lovely lunch at hyatt on the 5th! HEE. thanks!!
THANKS to MISS SHARON GOH for the email! hahahahah.. <3
and lastly, thanks to all my sms-wishers and the hugs in school! THANK YOU THANK YOU. deeply touched and thankful!!!!!

HEE. happy_galz@hotmail.com LOL. watched click at XIN's house with grace on the 8th! haha.. took lots of stupid retarded photos! check out grace's blog and click on photographs! :D goody.

love makes the world go round and round and round.
i've been eating. non-stop. but who CARES. LOL :D

2006-08-05T10:37:00.000+08:00

:)))))))) i know of some people who are able to make lydia ho smile.
hahahaaa :D
love life. go for it!
i want to buy a portable hard disk!!!
so that my loves won't be gone when my com crash :D

2006-07-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RORORORORO! cai peiyi! MUAHAHAH! (:
rowena didnt let me continue my dream of being a CEO ): i think my guestbook is screwed. niak! i enjoyed today.hahahhaha.. let me tell you all about it. betty boop. HEH HEH!

went back to crescent in da morning with lyn(cause grace woke up only when the cows came home) for speech day.kinda a bit uninteresting and artificial. cus they actually had this wierd "crescent girl" song or something.quite funny la.it made my hair stand and almost flew out.laladeeda.. i miss crescent.period.

after that liu liu around crescent with pt,evon,ry&jy.. HEE.big smile to them!took some baba photos and proceeded to marina with the purpose of going to fly sky.ended up hogging marina square.which later, only ry,evon&i went to fly kite at marina south. damn fun. damn fun. just that my foot was hurting.like mad..

things that went wrong today:
1.my cert got squashed up mad and i had to iron it.
2. stupid converse shoes gave me humongous blisters on my big&small toe. i had to stuff tissue at first and finally, buy plasters. and RUN with the shoes when i was trying to make the freaking kite fly.i run across the football field quite a number of times. chasing strings and making the damn thing fly.
3.the coke bottle cap bounced away from me.
4.my kite didnt fly high.GRAH.

this is my most enjoyable day of the week. even though i experienced lots of physical pain and discomfort. hhahahha.. it would be boring if everything went right(: good old friends.

2006-07-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

somehow it seems that i am living in an upside down world.
where nothing seems to make sense.
where sometimes i feel as if i'm imploding
there's so much inside, i feel like bursting.
people get pissed with you for almost no reason at all.
where's with all that terrible mood swings?
we don't owe it to you, ya know.
this is a world where eyes don't meet
and people sin more often as compared to in the past.
this is the world where money is more prioritised than kinship.
this is a world where all man is for himself and not others.
this is the ugly world that i'm living in.

go ahead.get on with life.. we're all gonna die anyway. HAHA. life is just a journey to the inevitable death. just let me be a pessimist and sadist for once, ya. your efforts are simply not appreciated.

man should not care what others say of him. for what matters most is what God sees in him.
the Lord God has shown me light in my most darkest day.where, yes, nothing seems to make sense.and you really thought that life is just crap.so harsh and cold.but God has guided me through them.and sometimes, when i'm in my coldest, thinking that God has forsaken me.He comes, with loving, great warm arms and give me the tiniest strenght that i need to carry on.performing my daily duties.using God's gift for me.but Lord, i dont think everyone really agrees with the gift that you have given me. teach me, Lord.for i am at lost now..they want me to be someone that i wasn't meant to be.

2006-07-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

i just caught some action packed show
no one else will be able to view it(:
cus i am simply.. special :D
whee
grahhhhhh. what cock.
i just witnessed..
my brother..
killing a cockroach
it was damn dramatic.
plus my sound effects.
HAH.
at midnight..
MUAHAHHAA.

2006-07-21T22:50:00.000+08:00

this world is really really really an ugly world.
it's the people. why? WHY? people are acting so superficially(i'm not talking about you, kake).what can money and fame drive a person to do? can money and fame really make one's head grow big?graaaah.
i dont know la ah.
what's real in this world anymore?
and i almost got backstabbed by this person whom i thought was a relatively ok friend.WHOA.really.. if it wasnt for my sources(HAHA).
seriously, this type of thing is my first time experiencing it.
follow your heart, baby// i mean.. WHAT THE.like i've ever offended you or anything.

enough about the world.not planning to write a GP essay on that.
i love johnny depp. i love his make up as that native indian or something. i love his eh-eh movements. hahahahahhaa.. no offence.orlando bloom may be good looking but his character nothing special.quite boring actually..
went to cathay cineplex(my first) to watch pirates with xingy mogey. MOKMOK.no regrets.really.. although i didnt understand bits of the movie.i still like it.and anyway, i understand it now.HEH HEH. keira knightly is horrible.i dont know why.but she's HORRID. gahhhhhhhhhh. what's wrong with this world mama. people living like they ain't got no mamas.

ben&jerry!!! shared the mix and match thing.yum yum.i helped mogey steal the bowl cus she was too shy to do it.hahahha.. we paid 8.40 for the ice cream and the freaking bowl! LOL.shucks.i'm turning into a typical go market shopping auntie.
oh.yes! piece of good news! my gp teacher MR GILL.is gone!! MUAHAHA. i think he resigned but i prefer the idea of him being fired.BUT WHO CARES.i'm happy.and i think he's happy not teaching us.WHEE.

i'm sorry.. sorry for causing you to lose your trust.i'll risk my life for you if it is ever needed. believe me.

2006-07-20T19:27:00.000+08:00

a little of this
a little of that
(:

i dont know why but school has been kinda fun, lately. i guess it's just the way you look at it. i still dont like the process of waking up and crawling to the bus stop thou
cheekopeh
anyway,i devoured 38275819653254 satays today. HEH. exotic food.my new found favourite food (: (:
xiling says i need more tactics(?).what is that?!! hahahaha.. and ange re-enforced her point -.- just because i imitated ryan's hair and showed it to him.gahhhhhh! hahaha.. i hope he's not insulted.
pe was fun. i ran. and ran. in the blazing sun.and it was fun.the aftermath of it.
and the last pe, ange accidentally threw a basketball at my head. hahaha.. i think she was trying to make my brains ooze out from my ears. LOL.
hommmmm.. i'm exhausted. but i'm feeling good!

anyway, i really need to thank God. should have done this earlier. but yaaaa. i want to thank him for numerous things (: really. without his guidance, i would never have made it this far.
firstly,i really want to thank God for my mid year results. i really couldn't have passed everything without His grace and wisdom. i prayed so so so so so so so so hard for my hist paper.my every single paper. and tada.. i passed it with a B. i was shocked totally. for every single results i have gotten is simply impossible without the Man above's help.
secondly, i want to thank God for the joy and peace he has given me. i actually feel happy even when i have a pounding headache today.i'm contented with what God has given me. nice and wonderful friends in and outside of CJ.teachers, everything. my superb family.i have enough cash to get me by everyday.yayyy.. life's good.thank you GOD (:
lastly, hahaha.. i actually dont know what to thank God specifically. let's just thank God for all the creations that he has made.i always think that it is simply marvellous that every cell and organ is made to suit whatever functions that our body has to perform. thank you God for nature. every single insects.. even though i am not really fond of them. THANK YOU GOD! (: (:

<3 and THANK GOD FOR IT IS FRIDAY TOMORROW! hallelujah!

2006-07-18T18:12:00.000+08:00

quack quack.
everyday i whine about going to school to anyone who's around me.. i took a much lesser time to adapt in cj as when i went to crescent. but I MISS CRESCENT NOW! it's just a sudden emotion that will soon pass and LO AND BEHOLD. tomorrow is back to the blue school.hahahhaaa.. yes.i am going to fly kite with my s2 gang after speech day. i've never flown a kite before in my entire life.quite deprived -gaggle-

and YOU.the person who is in my life but doesnt really exist.i see you around but i can't feel you.i used to speak up for you a little but now, i see no need to.maybe i've heard so many things about you and maybe i've got influence a little.i didnt dare judge from what i've heard for fear of being judged at myself.then, i talked to you on that day we met, unexpectedly.i didnt expect you to come.ahhh.. oh my,you have changed.the words you speak deem you an ungodly person.never use God's name in vain.i dont know what to think of you.i can hardly face you or say hi to you anymore.cus you are a person i hardly know.

alright.. i need to do my part on the freaking written report! sighs.

2006-07-17T22:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS TEO ZHIXIN! hee hoo! old liao! (: AND CONGRATS GRACE ONCE AGAIN FOR YOUR BAPTISM! LOVE BOTH OF YOU LOADS AND LOADS :D :D :D

2006-07-15T19:37:00.000+08:00

cough cough.
today have been a happy day! woke up at 7plus even though it is a saturday.hahaha.. went to have breakfast at delifrance with xingy wingy and grace!a pity lyn can't join us :( YOU ARE MISSED, WOMAN! anyway, it was sort of like a birthday celebration for xingy's birthday which is on monday.yum yum.HAH.had sort of like a continental breakfast!waffles and a really wierd looking egg 0.o gave xingy her present that grace, lyn and i bought! hahaha.. i'm glad she likes it! whooopee-doo. sat down and talked cock and laughed. HOHO!.a pleasant conversation (:

then heeded to great world city!you know, i really like gwc's toilet!hahaha.. i forced grace to take pictures of the toilet!LOL. the shops weren't open yet so we sat down and took more silly photos.HEH! so shy. -blush- walked around. zara was open so popped in and popped out. and xingy treated me to ben&jerry's choc fudge brownie(something like that la)! WAH! HAHAHA. heavenly. hummmm..

my throat is really pain now.hahaha.. it first started when bay brought 2 big packs of cheezels to class.and ange and i ate about 5 packets among ourselves.HEH HEH! and after that, i ate lots of rubbish.it hurts even when i yawn.GAH.cant open my mouth WIDEEEEEEE. :O
i'm gonna remove fredrik very soon! :( :(

SMILE (:

the going to be birthday girl!
presenting to you, XINGY WINGY!

OH YUM! my ben and jerry's choc fudge brownie!!!! lovely!

2006-07-14T23:38:00.000+08:00

let me introduce you to BOBBY AND LUCY! (:

ANIMAL FARM! i'm quite artistic right! -beams! hahaha

this is what ange and i do during boring chinese lessons. esp during the 2 hours of chinese. hahaha.. lucy lee was super pissed off. i think during parents teacher meeting, i'm gonna die. she wei-wen me at least 10times today.and she never yi-ping ange! biased. :D :D

2006-07-10T18:19:00.000+08:00

i like going out with zhixin, grace and lynette.
hahahhaa
school is boring
i hate school!
and i'm not alone.
ange hates school too!
heh heh.
you know why?
cus school is so bitchy
everyday is almost a traumatic experience

i actually like to go home (:

2006-07-08T18:59:00.000+08:00

niaaaaaHAHAHA. polly put the kettle on (:
jerrall is a childish pophead.
lonesome creep! LOL. he called me an "it". a child called "it". he should be banished.really..

ohhh when the saints go marchin' onnnn! .. oh when the saints go marchin' onnn. :D it's hard to hear two different people yakking about their sides of their story at each other. yakk yakk yakk! i've never seen such a pair with such "conflicting ideologies". MUAHAHAHA. history.

oh ye! my figgy brother deleted my testimonial to him cus he didnt like it. figgy whiggy. did i ever mention that my figgy whiggy brother is actually quite nice.lots of childhood and early teenage memories.hahahah! we used to talk to the wee hours in the morning and sometimes, dozing off a little.we are like people with double personality.

i've met many people in my life. MANYY MANY MANY. but life moves on fast.and it's hard to slow it down.people change and people go.that's just the way life simply goes.they simply vanish out of your life.like POOF.and HOM.no more there. i love my friends. i love it when i talk to zhixin with her husky sore-throat voice.hum hum.i love it when grace calls and ask qns and talk.i love it when evon whines for no rhyme or reason.i love lynette's talking crap and not funny jokes.i love my mom, dad and brother for getting used to my SOT behaviour.yeahhh.. i'm lovin' it!

i dont know what am i saying. but i just feel loved suddenly. in my sweaty self, i feel love :) love inside and love outside. <3 God bless ya, friends of lydia!

i'm missing zhixin, grace and lynette already!

2006-07-06T17:46:00.000+08:00

i really wanna do you proud. give you a better, happier life. i don't mean to be rude to you sometimes.i'm sorry.. you're my bestfriend in this WHOLE WORLD.
love you, mom.

2006-07-05T20:27:00.000+08:00

GRAAAAAAAAH!i simply cannot stand people who puntuates their sentences with vulgarities. and they reply questions with vulgarities. i swear, the average f words that were spoken in a day is at least 200. God, please save the world.their lives are so vulgar.

today is jerrall's birthday.HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUDE!and today, went to OCS for school excursion.aiya.. it was interesting yet boring.and everyone was super tired.it's interesting to know what those NSmen do there.but the tour?we walked non-stop in the heat with sticky pe shirts.i saw yunxuan in the auditorium!hahaha.. everyone went in and was so relunctant to get out!laaaaa.. very tired nia.have to do EoM! and i haven't even find a source yet!ommmm.. by tomorrow!!

i eavesdropped on this two guys talking on the bus today.ok.it was not eavesdropping since they were talking so loud, the whole bus almost shook(exaggeration). one guy said something sensible(for once).he said "in life, we have to make a lot of choices.and sometimes, they are not what we want." how true indeed. aiya.enough of talking cock.better go do my EoM.ommmm..

2006-07-03T17:36:00.000+08:00

the bleek and dullness of school is starting tmr. TOMORROW! shucks.sometimes i wish i was born in a nomadic tribe where i can eat the wild! MUAHAHAHA.or maybe a farmer girl, milking cows and eating cheese.HEH HEH. yes, lydia.the grass always look greener on the other side of the hill.self-denial.shoot me! i dont wanna go back to lucy lee!i dont wanna touch history!and this is the last term to promos!my goshhhhhh.. i must really,certainly try my hardest NOT TO GET RETAIN.
so,i say, CJ-ians are super driven to do well by their fear of getting retain. except for some psycho nutcase. I NEED STRENGTH, GOD. EMPOWER ME!.

i feel as if i've been studying all of my life.while is true, of course.ARGH! somebody save me! anyway, today is YOUTH DAY.wow wow, whee.nothing special actually.went to do pw at kap.then puffed off the town and had lunch with my mom, aunt and cousins.told you it was nothing much.sighhh.. i'm just feeling a little depress over the going back of school tmr.i bet only jiaqi is happy that THERE IS SCHOOL TMR! hahahha.. right, woman?

alright, i better study super hard this term. ok, lydia.you do it and be happy! HEH.my brother just loves to enforce the point that i may get retain. he says it's reverse psychology.sometimes, i really feel like boxing him.HUFF PUFF.

ahhhhhhhhh yes! good news! i just received an invitation to crescent speech day!got the freaking bronze award! TEEHEE! academic excellence. poot. :D :D :D

2006-07-02T17:58:00.000+08:00

a person takes years to trust, a day to enter a relationship and a day to break it. i'm missing the past with a familiar ache.the ending of the happy days together have left a hole in everyone's heart for we have proceeded into even darker times.

i wish the world wasn't so bad.i wish everyone didnt have to go through the pain of midyears, the pain of everything.i wish that happiness with stay in our hearts forver.
but, do wishes come true?
if i could turn back time, i would have treasured everyone around me.studied even harder.if only..
is everyone living a life full of what ifs? or is it only me?

let's move on for now.
ohhhhhhh yes. i can blog! which means:
1. MID FREAKING YEARS ARE OVER!!!!
2. my internet is working.
my internet died the day after i last blogged.how timely.so didnt have distractions during the studying period.heh heh.and FINALLY, i can come online today!wheeeeeee.. so,decided to change the yoda blogskin that ry made! and put HOT sweden mid-fielder FREDRIK up.hahaha.. i choose a less obscene pic to make this blog more kid friendly (:

had been out playing the last few days since exams are over and i have thurs and fri OFF.wed after the math paper i was in the HALELUJAH mood.
short recap:
wed:out lunch with tash and rose at a jap place in bugis.
walked and shopped around with tast after that.
thurs:shopped with yunxuan. first time seeing her after a million years
fri:lazed in rose's house and watched superman returns at night.

my personal memories. all in my mind and not for the world to see.
okkkkk.. hilight of the week, i guess. BRAZIL AND ENGLAND ARE OUT OF WORLD CUP.cries and moans are everywhere!blame brazil for being too proud&complacent.blame england for.. erm.they are just lucky to have gotten so far.and the penalty was just unlucky. i dont really care actually, now, i hope germany will win.but if she doesnt, hahaha.. OH WELL.

special thanks to people who have helped me during my midyears!
to God: i wouldn't have gotten through it without His help (:
to evon: for narrating the whole of the chi passage mr teng ye to me in english the day before the chi exams.
to my mom&dad: for their constant encouragement and understanding.
to people around me who have made things less stressful!
BIGGGGGG THANK YOU! :D

p.s tag board is removed! there's a guestbook in the links.

2006-06-11T19:34:00.000+08:00

I FOUND 5 BUCKS ON THE FLOOR! MUAHAHAHAHA

ok.it happened 3 days ago! HAHAH. but i seldom find more than 10cents on the floor! :D i surrendered the money to my mom since she was beside me.

ditto. anyway, been kinda stressed up lately.mid years and everything. history is giving me a pain in my head.eating my brain cells away happily.chomp chomp chomp.besides history and chinese, i think the rest shld be alright. (i'm leaving the results of my GP in God's hands).

church camp was alright, i guess. my bro was behaving like a pig.and somehow, i think i can't really get along with the church people.yaaaaa.. the speaker was great.hahaha.. he's a joker but a good preacher! AND! I MET GRACE ON THE LAST DAY OF THE CAMP! WAHAHAHAHA. i smiled like i never smiled before. HAHAHA. it was just like i saw my pri sch friend at the Great Wall of China a few years back! HAHAHA.i mean.. HAHAHA.i was really happy la :D grace is a worm. miu miu. :)

anyway, i went thru this ordeal recently.i was fearful of everything.really.. of not performing up to standards, getting retained.BLAH BLAH BLAH.but, praise the Lord. i think it had helped me to strengthen my faith.i always appear so nonchalent in church.like WHAT THE HECK kinda face (maybe that's why people dared not approach me).but today, i sat up and listened.i mean wow-wow.it felt enlightening. and for the past few days God has been speaking to me thru His word (you see, i've been reading the bible again).and NOT only that.aunt carmen gave me this book for my b'day 2 years back (7 AUG AH, PEOPLE :D HEE.) it's title is "the Purpose Driven Life". seeing it as another christian book, i just abandoned it one side.and a few days back, i picked it up and started reading it.it is a 40 day thing and i read the first day one.i felt awesome. cus it's like an answer to my prayers.oh mannnnn.. it's a really good book for the soul.get it people, and you can find your purpose.
i dont feel so stress now and i feel that everything is do-able.becus God is with me.GOD is SOOOOOOOO SO SO big.what problems can he not fix? NOTHING. amen.

so you see, things have been happening in my life. i call it a revamp. i'm determined to change my life.my walk with God.my relationship with people. (yes, grace.i will make it a point to call you.HEE)ahhhh.. and i'll put and do my best in everything that i do.as much as i detest studying.i feel honoured that i have this opportunity to study.yes.. i won't disappoint you, God! and my parents and my holy-moly friends! :D :D

SMILE! you're on LYDIA'S camera. TEEHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
dearest girl friend, rose, has free tickets to superman!love yaaaa kiddo! HAHAHAH. dont kill me.

2006-05-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

thank you God for giving me strength to be able to hold on thus far.thank you for all the courage and wisdom that you have given me.my wonderful supportive family and even my irritating brother who cheers me up by irritating me.thank you Father for always being here.just a blink of an eye and you have led me thru half a year.things would never have gone so smoothly if you weren't here blessing me and loving me.thank you. :D

:D
guess who's back. ahh.. I HAVE INTERNET!! MY DAD FIXED IT! GOD BLESS HIM! HEE!!!
hahaa.. anyway,yest was gp paper cum last day of term 2. which meant JUNE HOLIDAYS! although i knew i'm gonna do damn badly for the gp paper, i'm still super happy that MUAHAHA. break(which i still have to study for my mid yrs). anyway, yesterday was fun-filled so i must blog abt it.HAHAA.went to outside crescent to meet ry cus she had to collect her cert :D then proceeded to town and to meet evon.hurrr.ate at breeks and shopped around.HEE.ry's bag was damn heavy cus she had this 2.2kg laptop in her minnie mouse bag.LOL.and she was lugging it around.anyway, then went to coffee club and had muddy mud pie (YUM) and broccoli soup! hahaha.damn nice.bloody person kept on trying to clear out plates when we havent eaten finish! indirectly chasing us over.fart on their face. then evon went home after much whinning -.-

ry and i cabbed down to east coast. she let me listen to this mr brown show on the richard gere credit card advert! HAHAHA.it was so full of shit! LOL.then we were talking about the bak chow mee one that mocked the james gomez thing.hahah.. AND the taxi driver who is actually quite nice.. started talking about the PAP and the elections. i swear ry and i didnt quite understand.hahaha.. she actually fell asleep and i was just eh eh-ing all the way.LOL. cycled for an hour till 10.15. and ry had to cycle thru the darkest route.i almost died and crash into a bush. the stars were nice at bedok jetty.i thought i saw scorpio.nevermind..HEH.and i sort of saw indonesia, i guess.hahaa.returned the bike and walked on the sand.enjoyed the sound of the sea.hmmmm.. climbed up the breakwaters with the help of ry.hahahha.. was looking at indonesia and the stars and talking when i saw the bloody RED COCKROACH! shoo shoo. wanted to run for our lives.hahaha.. and when we got down the breakwaters (i help from ry again), this fisherman started talking to us about CHINA! hahaha.. grace will love this talk.LOL.my goodness.he rambled on and on NON-STOP.what china needs the world or the world needs china.ry and i were pinching each other.HAHAHAH.had to cut him halfway about his china talk to leave.it was quite late already.hohoho.. took 196 home which was quite a long ride.we were zonked by then.
well.. at least we felt a bit enlightened by talks of election and china.my tian.hahahhaa.. gonna do this at the end of every term/semester (if ry is in s'pore)!hahaha.. night cycling at east coast is fun and relaxing (besides going down that slope)!

yaaaaaaa! and today, was woken up by xin's call.hahaha.. and poofed off to tiong to watch x-men with kake and xin.X-MEN is a SUPER NICE SHOW! Storm is damnnnnn cool.and pretty!hahahah.. kake was googling at Angel.and xin like old man.hahha.. the charles friend. what magnigoo(?).some funny goon name.the show was quite sad la.. many people died. professor x death was super saddening.and wolverine is damn macho! HAHAHAH.i thought furball(the beast) was kinda cute.HAHAHAH.. ok.nevermind.

wheeeeee.. how i wish my life can always be this fun.hahahah.. but let's face reality. have to get promoted at the end of this year. starting to mug on monday already! let's just pray for a pass in gp for now. and my bro just said that yoda looks like a freak.freak man. church tmr!!!!!!

2006-05-18T19:36:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. i dont know why but i feel happy.

although tmr has econs and chem test.
hahahha.. it's all in the mind! LOL.
life seems better recently.thou the workload is terrible.HORRIBLE.salted vegetables.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. shuddup.

2006-05-03T18:13:00.000+08:00

curl up and die
that's what i feel after school everyday. or maybe just today.everyday, i just wanna go home and die on my bed. not as if there's even time to go out.bloody shit.my head feels like bursting or something. this WHOLE bloody jc shit is really REALLY getting on my nerves.gahhhhhhhhhhhhh.PI PI PI PI PI.P their head. and chinese test tmr. HOHO.btw, i'm the chinese rep.joke.

thank goodness it's may.i wished it's like december la.and yesterday, bro paul gave some speech.dont know why the heck is cca so important.i remembered akltg gary lee said that if a company hires you, why the hell will they see whether you can drop a ball or shoot or whatever nonsense.yikes.i'm quitting shooting and joining interact.taaaaaaaaaaaa..

i hate jc life. i'm quite crude in my entry eh.gaaaaah.it's this jc thing that is driving me nuts.and i'm doing nyaa with jiayi.we have this marvellous plan to go pulau ubin and camp.can't wait.HAHAHAHAHA.

to hell with chinese test. i'm gonna do my PI now. ROAR. the universal cliche. life sucks, take drugs. bomb cj.

2006-04-25T18:32:00.000+08:00

hee. brief update on my life.
i miss rowena. and T21.and people of crescent.
oh well.. but my class,T34,is good.nice people.hahaha.. but damn stressed up with school work now. the SHIT chem bonding. wahlao. abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz. and i'm taking history. it's kinda interesting but i still can't write an essay and test is next week! econs is like WHATDAHELL. bah.school is getting monotonous and boring. --------------------

yesterday was tasha's birthday!hahaha.. quite happy.tasha and sara are damn CUTE.hahah.yea.. and jarrell is annoying me everyday! HAHAHAHAH. but he entertains me with his dumb msges like "HELLO" and his ikea currypuff craving. and xiling is saying that i am demoralising her with my sighing! HAHAHAHAH. quite funny. i'm always asking henry for his ice mountain water cus i havent watch my water bottle.killing those dumb flies flying around.yada yada yada. i'm too lazy la... just completed dumb PFT today.

hahah.. but i can conclude that i've grown much since i came into a jc.i realised the significance of friends in my life. simple things that jiayi said.you know her english is super power. about us missing each other so much really tells a lot.and it's only 2months since ro and me parted to different schools.and yet, it seems like years.hahahha.. time flies and dies. our separation only strengthened the bonds(damn.it sounds like chem) we share.also, coming to a jc,new friends are made(: God creates marvellous people among the scheming ones.ry just started poly yesterday.. i wonder how she's doing.HEH.ilovemyfamily too! severe randomness. braindead.

all of you to lydia is like what burger is to burgerking.

2006-03-05T20:14:00.000+08:00

some things in life, you know you will never forget.
and i can name you some of mine. the most recent is my DEAREST DEAR CLASS. 1T21!! wah! i will miss ponning bio with rowena, insulting ange. playing daidee. kanna eaten by janelle. SIGH. and tmr, i have to do orientation all over again.boo.. fortunately ange will still be there and zhixin! hahaha.i'm glad sa rejected me. wahahah. stupid sa.break my heart by rejecting me TWICE. THINK YOU SO BIG AH! SA ONLY WHAT. i'll be the top scholar in CJ. WAHAHAHA. and i get to officially drop bio. SCREW MR CHINNY CHIN CHIN. ALL THE BEST ROWENA IN AC! HEE. i'll miss you terribly (:

CJ! here i come!

2006-02-27T20:43:00.000+08:00

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz.
let's see. it's been a while.well well.. o level results were out long time ago.. it was alright, i guess. kinda happy. TEEHEE. cj have been fun.. hahah. oh! dear brother paul annouced today that wed will be a holiday! MUAHAHAHA!! first time this year bro paul said something sensible.and bio no longer exist in my timetable.WAHAHAH. life is great. oh yah, zhixin and i have decided to put sa as our first choice after MUCH MUCH comtemplation. so, we'll see our fate on friday.. yada yada yada.

okkkkk.. last sat. HEH HEH. what a bloody long time ago. went to ac funfair with grace and zhixin. it was HOT and EXPENSIVE. jiayi kindly brought us around. HUGE PLACE. then went to ka chiaw yiyuan at subway and watched pink pather with zhixin.WAHAHAH! stupid funny show. but we had to sit at the first row.hahah.. it was still funny thou. he talks like a chicken.

then, jumped to fri.went for lunch with old nice clique. evon,ry,jy,pt and yx.ate at pastamania.muahaha.. roamed around madly. then AH HAH. went to meet my mom and bro at cityhall and proceeded to suntec. HAHA. my bro actually treated me to the suntec laksa, a bottle of drink and cafe gelare ice cream.HEH.how generous (: first time in my 17 years of life.HEEE.was over the moon. no, the universe.WAHAH :P

sun, at church, i told my mom i wanted to be a free thinker. hahah.. my dad said he wants me to talk to the pastor.LOL.crazy.. my pastor is LIKE. untalkable.and who cares about talking to him anyway.BLEAH.left early with my bro and his gf.went to tiong to meet evon. heh. watched rumors have it. AHHHHH. nice show. hahah.. funky grandma told the guy to "go play with your dick"! HAHAHAHA.funny funny.sweet show.and then, i saw my freaking bio teacher.i almost died. fishmonger.
and congrats to zhixin for her new phone. haha.. sorry that the old one is gone ):
that's all.tata.till then.. we'll see abt it.

how come it feels as if i dont know you anymore? sigh!

2006-01-27T19:48:00.000+08:00

i'm happy! h a p p y. i think it's a BIG thing. i mean, like how many people in this world is actually feeling HAPPY now. :D okkkk. school was fun today! can you believe it. hahaha. played frisbee for pe although i was persuading them to play POISON ball! hahahahah! OH OH OH. it was fun! hahaha. wei qiang is a CRACKPOT joker. by the way, he is a siao guy from my class. and I MEAN SIAO! hahaha. i just saw FIREWORKS outside my house! hahaha. anyway, back to the point. eh eh. yah.. it was fun. HAHAHAH. then ah, was quite furious that our attempt of ponning econs lecture failed. BAH BAH. my nice econs notes are severely vandalised by angeline and rowena. haha. and a bit from me, of course :) HEE. and i zonked off at intervals of the lecture.bloody man was acting crazy.i think he is a hypnotising freak.and my math lecturer is a SARCASTIC FROG! maybe it is due to the fact that she is heavily pregnant. BUT STILL. she acted like a bitch. and i am serious. really! she insulted my mathematics skills.and she is cranky thru out the whole lecture. crazy woman. so unlike my nice and cute math teacher. BLEAH. go give birth la.

the cny celebrations were only for a PATHETIC 1 hour. hahaha. i think the ODAC and the dance had the best performance. HEE. oh! and i got hit by a water bottle. hahaha! my classmates said that the bottle hit me crazy. ahhaa. was acting crazy after that. OH OH. i think it was another class cus while playing frisbee, the frisbee hit their class twice! hahaha!! that guy was apologising like mad. and i had to say IT'S OK thousand of times before he believed me. i mean, it's just a knock right. hahaha.. wierd. the attendance of my class today was miserable. hahaha! i'm a GOOD STUDENT. wahahaha :D

ahhh. was heading for home after school cus aiyah. dont want to say. was super duper tired. but super duper happy. HAHA. but while on the bus back, yunxuan called and ask me out to town to shop for her new year clothes. and since she was alone, out of my goodwill (HEEHEE), i took a u turn and went to town to meet her. SHE GAVE ME PINEAPPLE TARTS! haha. eat until fat. LOL. shopped with my ultra heavy bag. and i once again listened to all her innova stories. i'm not a good story teller. hahaha. OH! and i finally ate the fried prawn mee at Food Republic. MUAHAHAHA. it was nice la! but yunxuan said it was so-so only. fussy pussy. then her aunts and bro came to join us. and yunxuan was asking them which of our pe shirts are the nicest. and innova won. yunxuan was practically OVER THE MOON! -_________-" hahahaha. and i took a happy bus ride home after that. life is good. TRALALALA.

most of the things, you won't even realise that it is there until it is gone. hahaha(sadistic). and i guess that this is what life is all about eh.before you know it, it is GONE.being taken for granted is the most sadest thing that can happen to anyone. and i'm sure everyone are bound to experience it once or twice. it's just a matter of time. today, while i was waiting for yunxuan to try her clothes, a quick wave of something, something that felt like sadness creeped slowly around me. it was so real la. i guess, it may be due to that annoying sad music that the store was playing. heh. it past quickly la. but, now, to think of it. i guess,now,i know why i felt the way i felt.
YOU DONT KNOW WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH.it's always ALL ABOUT YOU.

i'm still happy. praise the Lord.

2006-01-23T20:23:00.000+08:00

ahhh. monday wasnt so bad afterall. hahahah! lessons were crappy as usual. hahah. what's new? anyway, ended school at 2 so, headed to town with my class.heh heh. watched memoirs of a geisha. the show super long la! the wei jiang guy (i dont know how to spell his name la) got quite bored! ahhaha. and he pretended to cry at un-sad parts. retarded. hahahah! anyway, at around this show there's this line, "you cant ask the sun to shine more and the rain to rain less"! HAHAHAHAHHA! i think it is so funny la! ahahha. it's not only me la, rowena laughed too! HAHAHA. i mean, can you imagine talking to the sun and the rain! LOL. ohhh. and it was only like towards the end that i realised that the geisha is zhang ziyi! HAHAH. i feel like a loser. and i thought mr chairman was eh.. chou/zhou yun fat! HHAHAHAHAH! the woman sitting in front turned back and gave me an irritating look. OH WELL.

anyway, yesterday went shopping at bugis with grace. i almost died. it was packed like crap. hahaha.. met zhixin and jiaqi while we were trying to cross the road to bugis village and they were trying to cross the road to bugis junction. hahaha! what a small little world. lalala.grace is so insensitive la! keep on saying that she has a BIG BUTT! hahahahah! and impatient! totally unlike me la! SIGH. hahah. oh yah, and jiaqi tore her shorts! TEEHEE. i thought it was funny. ahhhh.. nevermind. had a really fun and tiring time. the trip was quite effective la. bought lots of stuffs. and i am not even contributing to the economy. booohooo.

ok. and then, on sat, went town with evon, pt and yunxuan. haha.. morning went back to crescent cus peiting had some stuffs to do. lalalala.. ate at breeks and saw mrs goh and her son! hahaha. the son quite cute! LOL. very cute la. heh.. helped peiting shop for her clothes.walked like crazy la. hoof hoof. then stoned. met my IG grp. hahaha. i think they must hate me for not going for the outing and meeting me in town. OH WELL. and then, i bought a green BRAZIL skirt from heeren which is kinda heavily condemned by grace. poof. hahah. yunxuan bought a pink one. HEE. the guy there was very humourous. wahahahah! took a bus to ps. and i was yawning already. YAWNNNNNNNNNN.

rahhhhhhh. i'm totally exhausted. HAHAH! exhaust pipe! HEE. ok, nevermind. TATA PEOPLE.

2006-01-14T21:34:00.000+08:00

it was until i came to JC that i realised that evon can be so understanding and empathetic! HAHAHAHA. for evon, and only evon (i hope you are TOUCHED EH, if you read this), i will go to sa if i can make it in the 2nd intake. on the other hand, i also realised that relationships do change. things that you thought were strong were actually so very fragile and weak. oh well. OH WELL. we all move on eh. lalalala..

lovely saturday. my brother has this game called monster pets in his handphone! HAHAHAH! so nice to play! wheee. anyway, then went to town to meet yunxuan and evon. hahah. i waited for yx for 25 mins! toured around town. my father gave me taka 20 bucks voucher. HEH HEH. walked the usual cine and heeren. and then wisma for dinner. ate at food republic. evon bought a bag and yx bought 3 shirts.

SPEAKING OF THAT BAG! you see, she actually bought my jacket to return me. ahahha! but it was so bulky i asked her to keep in her bag first. hahah. then i keep her newly purchased bag. BUT! we ended up bring each other stuffs home! WHOOOHOOO! we rock. HAHAHHAHA.

heh. ok.. then yx left for her seafood dinner. she had 2 rounds of dinner la! fortunately yx saved us from listening about her love for innova. HEH!evon and i were like drunkards. hahaha! we bumped each other all the way! and realised that the wisma building has a hole! AHHAHAHAHAHAHAH! looks like the entrance for cable cars! HAHAHA. walked to far east. so funny. i led her to walk the wrong way. WAHAHAHAH. bought a bag at far east! and ate the new zealand ice cream! HAHAHA. ECSTASY CHOCOLATE! lalala. over the moon. and it was BACK HOME! heee..

oh ya.. i cut my hair yesterday! after the cca day at crescent. it doesnt look cut la. but oh well, just know that i had my hair cut! and i saw blooming patricia mok! evon was so blind la. that mok person actually walked past her! hahaha. jan told us once again about her hilarious MI stories! HEH. i miss the good old days. sighhhh..

anyway, a bunch of my classmates are currently cca-less! HAHAHAH! aaralyn and i have decided to just chiong for whatever cca that is willing to accept us and that is super slack! HEE. xin ying and simin have officially branded me with the label aunty! defamation! hahahha.. wierd bunch of people.

2006-01-12T18:11:00.000+08:00

it's raining AGAIN! hhaha. i like the coolness! whee! you know, on second thoughts, maybe i shall just stay in cj. hahahah! anyway, did this funny quiz thing that grace sent to me. and this quiz thing said that my colour is BLACK! hahahah. wierd. anyway, here it is!!!

Lydia, your true color is Black!

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

dumbo.

2006-01-08T18:08:00.000+08:00

i seriously thought it was going to snow today. cold like durians. and when i was coming home from church, this car splashed water and dirt on me. i almost went HALLELUJAH! heh. i listened to the sermon today!! although the weather was so NICE to sleep, i paid attention to the sermon. HEH HEH. was kinda tired thou. had a conference call with evon, yunxuan and peiting last night. JC SOUNDS SCARY! AND ALL OF US IN A DIFFERENT SCHOOL! SOMEONE IS CLEARLY PLAYING A JOKE ON US! YOYO! HELLO?!!!!

friday went back to crescent for campfire! HEH. the MI people were complaining like mad. and 1S3 is of non existance. hahah.. the campfire itself was super boring la.. but we had our own self entertainment. PJ were dancing their dance. lol. we, cj people, were lost in our tangled dance. LOL.

tmr is officially our last day of orientation! having dragon boat and amazing race.. then at night, IG NITE. and TUESDAY is a HOLIDAY! which means sleeping in. HEH HEH!!! oh ya, to answer everyone qns if i'm staying in cj after first 3 months.. hee. if i do really really well, i will go to TJ. if not, i'll just stay in cj. what for change jc right. dumb dumb. HEE.

2006-01-05T18:04:00.000+08:00

i hate it when someone says WHATEVER in that freaking tone. especially when it's a close friend.

anyway, cjc is not bad la. heh. orientation was kinda fun and tiring. and the jc is quite near to my house. so no complains. yea, and i ended up with my first choice of subject combination. HEH HEH. math, chem, bio and econs. POOT. and in the same class as angeline and rowena. hee. i'm super exhausted la.. sigh. this paragraph is boring!!

ok, past 2 days have been going to town. tue was to meet peiting, sj and lingfang. cus it was peiting's birthday. HEH. went with prisc.. same school, ya know.. then yest, went with prisc again to meet yunxuan. AND I ATE AT CRYSTAL JADE! my wonderful darling E FU NOODLE! they served it so slowly laaaa! super annoying. but it tasted HEAVENLY! aroused my taste buds! wahahah!! finally i got to satisfy my craving. HEE. had been craving for it since i was in india! WHAHAHAH! today came home straight.. too tired and exhausted to do anything. boo..
that's about what i want to say. heh. boring entry. tata!

2006-01-01T01:10:00.000+08:00

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS
-study real hard and not screw my jc years
-more filial and nice to my parents
-keep in touch with my buddies
-appreciate all the tiny little things that people have done for me
-try all the nicest food in singapore
-repair my already dead relationship with God
-treasure every minute and second
-EAT AND SLEEP WELL!
-be the ultimate LYDIA HO

since i was away for Christmas and had no opportunity to wish everyone in the world MERRY CHRISMAS, let me wish the WHOLE WORLD, WHOLE SEA, WHOLE SKY a very WONDERFUL and PERFECT NEW YEAR!!! it will DEFINITELY be better than last year :P and to pathetic yunxuan, YOU WILL SURELY PULL THRU THAT TRIBAL AND SURVIVAL THING!

last year, I MANAGED TO STAY OUT OF TROUBLE! HEE. no demerit points at all! attained my Silver and Gold Badge from guides! I GOT A B3 FOR MY CHINESE. thank GOD. went to india and received enlightenment! and i finally got a freaking GOOD PROGRESS AWARD! muahahaha! survived the O Levels. repaired spoilt friendship. got to know more about people around me. strengthened friendships. never quarrelled with my brother although he owes me money and irritates me. well, he treated me to choc and an ice cream when the new year just arrived. but i've been kinda mean. not spending time with my parents with the excuse of O Levels. sinful. AHHH. i cant think anymore.

GOOD NIGHT WORLD! HAPPY NEW YEAR. THINGS WILL GET BETTER (:!!

2005-12-30T22:55:00.000+08:00

wow wow wow. :D incredible india! (15 Dec- 29 Dec) hahaha.. recap. i went to delhi->kashmir(srinagar)->delhi again->jaipur->agra(TAJ MAHAL!!!)->back to delhi->goa->mumbai. heh. and in the flight to delhi from singapore, i watched 40 year old virgin and little manhattan! the 40 year old virgin was so FUNNY! HEE. there's this part where a woman was talking to the man and her freaking nipple was showing cus her blouse was super low cut!! LOL. and when i came back, i watched oliver twist and in her shoes! hahah. i love singapore airlines!

ok.. not to side track. ANYWAY, delhi was kinda cool and uncool. the super cool part was that the whole place was a public zoo. there were cows, ponies, horses, pigs, camels, elepants, monkeys, goats and dogs wandering on the street. heh! one time, there was this cow sleeping in the middle of the highway with its tail wagging slowly! WAH! hahah. blocked traffic. all of the vehicles had to do a huge BIG turn becus of it cus cows are a sacred animal there and they had to be left untouched. HEE. the whole place was a zoo. now, the uncool part of delhi. they cars BLARED their horns like mad. it's as if it's a HORN-IF-YOU-LOVE-INDIA state. and worst of all, all those BIG lorries had their back pained with words "HORN PLEASE" !!! and so, you can imagine how noisy it was on the road. another uncool thing, the place was almost like a public toilet. men peed everywhere! fortunately not shit. BUT the animals SHIT as and when they liked. some places were so extreme, you can faint. HEH. but, overall, it was all right. enjoyable. HEE. the shopping was good. :)

ok. FLEW to kashmir. the freezing place. stayed in a cool boathouse on the Dal Lake. we are to travel on a small boat (chikara) to the land to travel around. cool eh. went skiing and sleighing. wahahah! aunt nad bought a nice nice carpet for about US 3k. their apple juice is nice! HEH. oh oh oh. you know, the boathouse has a guestbook. and i was flipping thru it and guess who's name i saw. HEH. MISS PENNY ANG. she was there before me. stayed in the same boathouse! of all of them there. and her comments ahhh. are like poot. she complimented them on their service and comfort. all those crap. then the last line, she bloodily wrote "KEEP IT UP!" -_________-" zzzz. mashimarrow. yea.. visited some gardens there. saw twigs and had to imagine the pretty flowers that blossom there during spring. heh. depressing sight. but i like kashmir! the indian guys there are SUPER DUPER cute. i may marry one of them someday :D HEE. they are honest and friendly. make an honest living. i like it. love it.

then, flew to delhi and drove for 6 hours to Jaipur. had a splitting headache. cus of the irritating delhi traffic. my ears were blaring even after i was lying in the Holiday Inn hotel room. and the driver drove so fast, and i was sitting in front. i seriously thought i was gonna die in an accident in india. oh yeah, saw a dead cow in the middle of the road. sad. visited the amber fort. SUPER beautiful. had to ride an elephant up. haha.. shaky! and the elephant urine is really like a waterfall. its shit is not as tall as me like what peiting said. but it was HUGE! hahaha. the fort was where previous mogrels(how to spell) lived. something like a palace. buddha-ful. HEE HEE. saw a lot a lot of things. learned a lot. lalala..

ok then, next destination was Agra. and what can i say? the Taj Mahal was so beautiful and magnificent!! so pure, full of love.. AHHH. i cannot describe it in words! was stunned when my eyes were laid upon it. the whole building, or rather, the burial grounds of the deceased king and queen was built with pure white marble. and for the decorations of the place, they etched out the white marble and pasted gem stones into it for the pattern. it was so nicely done up! can you imagine how much labour was put into it?! phewwww. love it to bits. i was super excited. heh. then visited a boring Agra fort. booo. AND, i saw something that turned me off ENTIRELY. the locals actually caught bears and tied a FREAKING rope thru its nose, mouth and neck and forced it to dance!! just to get some money! it was horrible! the bears were like in excruciating pain!!!!!!!! damn those people. DAMN. wanted to box them in the eye. shitholes.

oh well. OH WELL. proceeded back to delhi. drove again. almost died the second time. went back to the same hyatt hotel and got our remaingin bags. toured around delhi. went to what India Gate and frooze there just to capture some photos. it's a war monument. traffic was so bad i almost again died the third time. was so HAPPY to return to hyatt. but then bed felt like tofu. i woke up the next morning feeling like worms. heh. fortunately my aunty nad had salonpas. HEE. went to the domestic airport to fly to goa. bloody place was in a mess becus there was a super heavy fog and most of the flights were delayed HORRIBLY. i reached at 10.15am to catch my plane at 12pm. but it was delayed till 3pm, as printed on my boarding ticket. then, it changed to 4, then 5 and finally at 5.45 i finally managed to board the plane. the leg space was so TINY! and when i got onto the plane, they dropped a super irritating news to us. WE ARE DELAYED FOR ANOTHER 1 AND A HALF HOURS. &^%*()% !!! i was stucked in that tiny place for 1.5 hrs. damnit! and at around 7.15, the plane then started to take off to Goa. delayed for a bloody 9 hrs! wasted one whole day in the airport. sheeeeeeeesh.

Goa is BEAUTIFUL. stayed in Park Hyatt Resort and Spa. the bed wasn't like the hyatt regency one in delhi. it was SO NOT TOFU LIKE. and i had a really wonderful sleep. ahhh. it was dreamless as i remember that perfect night so clearly. the place was so NICE. chalet kinda style. like a 10 star chalet. heh. located near the beach and have a nice swimming pool. with so mnay excellent facilities. the temperature was cool. HEE. i went battling with the waves in the Adriatic Sea, swam in the cool pool, soaked in the whirlpool. had a sumptious Christmas lunch buffet by the sea. played ping pong. read my books. threw darts. ordered room service. it was FREE AND EASY! heh. lots of rich caucasians were there with their slim and tiny girlfriends. all of them clad in their tiny bikini. hahah.. some of them had everything spilling out. it was really funny. little kids running about, old couples behaving sweetly at the beach. can't help smiling to myself. :D HEE HEE.

depressed when we had to leave Goa. went to mumbai. stayed in Grand Hyatt. and had the Grandest Continental Breakfast. haha. grilled mushrooms. potatoes with onions. chocolate danishes. toasts... etc. i think i put on weight. heh.. shopped in the streets of mumbai where i almost got knocked down by little tutus 10 000 times. shopping at the Hyatt Plaza and bought grace,zhixin and jiaqi's Christmas presents. hee. shopped at some funny crossroad mall and got lyn's present and tibits for the yew family. hee. SHOPPED and SHOPPED. now, i am left with 62 rupees. but who cares! i am in singapore already! hee. mumbai was my last destination. and it came to the end of my incredible india trip. :D

india was really an eye opener. the poverty there sucked my heart out. everything the car stopped at the traffic light, beggars holding cute little babies, scaly looking will come knocking at your window asking for money or food to feed the baby. the baby, the baby. it was ultra depressing. beggars lived under the flyovers. in slums by the roadside. so conjested and dirty. and whenever you alight at a tourist spot, locals will swarm around you and try to sell whatever goods they have at hand. trying hard to earn just a bit of rupees. little children of about 4 years old already started begging. i saw people sleeping my the roadside, trying to get the little heat produced by the lamp post. and in mumbai international airport, outside, it stunked of urine. people stayed there.. begging tourist to give them whatever remaining cash that are left in their wallet. children running about with no proper education. the air in delhi was dusty and it was cold. and yet, you see the locals so loosely dressed. huddling around a small bon fire at night. but there's always an even uglier side of everything. i'm not sure whether or not to believe. a taxi driver told us that when you gave them money, they would use it to gamble and the children actually had schools to attend to and the adults, jobs awaiting them. but yet, they chose an easy way out. begging.

the indians, majority of them are trustworthy. they are really helpful and nice. friendly. to those who condemned india and indians. go to india and see for yourself. how nice all of them are. Indians have a soul and they are our equals. screw whatever caste they have in the indian society. maybe, if the whole world joined hands, there weren't be such a thing as poverty in the world.

2005-12-11T21:10:00.000+08:00

church in da morning. was SUPER tired and i dozed off during semon. lol. my bad.. i am SO SURE that the pastor was watching me. RAHH! just hope that my head wasn't bouncing too violently. after that, i headed home with a FULL INTENTION to go straight to bed. THEN, i was messaging xin xin when grace msged me.

THAT WOMAN. THAT WOMAN! CON ME INTO GOING TO EAST COAST! at first, she told me that she have this URGE to cycle. and i was already lying in the comfort of my bed reading this SUPER mysterious book. anyway, i cave in and took the mrt to bedok. I HAD TO STAND ALL THE WAY! how annoying. then, i wanted to talk the bus 196 but ended up taking 401 cus the stupid sign board said that it is going to east coast. AND LO AND BEHOLD. i ended up at almost the other end of east coast from grace. so, i walked and walked and looked and looked. I DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TALKING TO THE TORTOISE IN THE POND! and finally, after thousand minutes walking under the QUITE HOT weather, i finally saw this MAD person cycling towards me. AND THEN!!!!!!! moooooooky grace YEW, said she had no mood to cycle already! FEEL LIKE BLASTING HER WITH A BAZOOKA!

so, we sat by this greenish pond and i FINALLY get to admire and bond with the tortoises. HEH. talked a bit and walked to her house. hahaha.. and ate 3 sweet, green oranges there. hahaha! it was nice! so, in some ways, REWARDING. hahah. talked to fluffy! AHHHHHHHHH! so cute. and grace's dad was kind enough to offer to take my weight, body fat and water percentage which i rejected politely. HEEE :D left her home at around 6.15. poor deedee had to be locked up in the room.

took the direct bus home and reflected on a lot of things. while the bus slowly made its way to central. i loveeee long bus rides. made me think. reflect mostly on the past years.. yeah. people whom i hold dearest. even those who con me to go east coast. hahahah. yea. made new decisions about my attitude towards people and how to enjoy my india trip to the FULLEST FULLEREST!

i'm leaving on thursday.. HEH. flyin off at 4.30! 2 whole weeks, AWAY FROM SINGAPORE. AWAY FROM EVERYTHING. and then, come back and worry. SHUCKS. will be back on the 29th!!!! I AM GOING TO BUY A TUDUNG FOR AUNTY FAZLIAH!!!!!!! :D :D :D

2005-12-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

it kinda suck that you have to vanish from my life so soon. OH WELL.
i'm amused. HEH.

okkkkkkkkkkk. it's BLOOMING friday. tell me, where did all the time fly to? AHHH//so many things, so little time. L A Z Y.

2005-12-08T16:20:00.000+08:00

if everyone could take a step back and look at the world, maybe they will have a different perspective of life. instead of indulging in meaningless activities, in vices or even in their daily schoolwork or jobs, they will probably see something different. feel the love radiating from others instead of being so uptight. everything would be so colourful, so meaningful and so enjoyable. if they could take time off and dance merrily in the moonlight, they would have seen the vast majestic sky and feel that nothing is impossible.

if everyone could just accept that people make mistakes and learn to forgive whole-heartedly, then maybe the word "enemies" would never have existed. what for hold grudges with something that have happened so long ago and leave yourself feeling so choked up with hatred. why make yourself feel so uncomfortable and making everyone around feel different around you. fearful that you might evolved into a beast and gulp them down your throat and bite them with your venom. slowly, people will withdraw and there will be no one left for you. then, it will be too late and you cant turn back the clock and revive that moment when you chose to act the way you did.

if everyone see the good side of everybody and stop taking every presense for granted then this place would be wept by the power of love or for some, comradship. why not simply just respect people's decision and not play on their feeling of guilt and manipulate them to do what you want. that's entirely selfish. praise them a little, tease them a little. BUT WHY OVERDO IT? it's better to realise what you have done instead of regretting them on your death bed. better late then never.

God Bless the lost souls of the world.

2005-12-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

you have been stucked in my head. you are intruding into my life. you are contaminating my thoughts. so will YOU just GET OUT OF MY LIFE AND STOP MY BRAIN FROM THINKING AND THINKING AND DREAMING AND DREAMING!! UGH!
sigh
i wish i could just to that but the harder i try to push you away, the deeper you start to sink into my brain.your image is like stucked there permanently and GOSH, i dont even see you around anymore. just WORDS AND MORE WORDS. thinking about you always is so SO SO sinful that i can just be crucified on a cross and have a crow poking at my eye. AHHHHHHHHHH! DAMN YOU THAT IS SO SICK. you freaking black spot of my life. but you make me see and feel things differently. WAH!! SEE LA. YOU ARE MAKING MY LIFE SO CONFUSING. oh yes, AND I AM GOING TO INDIA. AWAY FROM YOU AND YOUR LOVELY WORDS. MUAHAHAHAHH! AND IF I SEE YOUR FACE ON THE TAJ MAHAL, I AM GOING TO PERSONALLY HUNT YOU DOWN AND SLAP YOU SO HARD THAT YOUR MOM CANNOT EVEN RECOGNISE YOU. OH TRUST ME, I WILL. it's your fault. HEH HEH. THAT CUS ME INSANITY. BOOO.

my legs hurt and it's YOUR FAULT TOO. it's a bit unreasonable and senseless SINCE YOU ARE NOWHERE TO BE FOUND. and that's even better cus i can blame you without you even knowing. AND GOSH, BE THANKFUL THAT I WROTE AN ENTRY FOR YOU. if you just tell me "let go", i would HAPPILY AND WONDERFULLY free myself from you. OH NO, OH NO. on second thoughts, HEH. dont do that. HOLD ON TIGHT. AND FIRM OR YOU MAY GET THROWN OFF FROM THIS ROLLER COASTER RIDE. break an arm, break a leg. RAH. simply, GET OF ME.
i'm fighting with the inner being of myself. i have 2 souls fused into one body. RIGHT?!?!?!?!?!?!?! THEY DONT UNDERSTAND. I AM CONNECTED WITH THIS 'THING' emotionally. i dont care if it doesnt sound right. WHY DONT YOU GIVE ME A BETTER PHRASING. AHHH. dont bother. go enjoy your sun, inner mate. may the waves engulf you tightly and EMBRACE YOU SO HARD and unglue you altogether.

hahahahha. you insane piece of MANURE. now the whole world would think that i am outa my mind. but it's ok. i have the nice company of you everywhere i go. in me, in my head, heart and soul. even if you are shivering in other part of the world and getting a suntan at the same time.bonkers in the OLD winter breeze and NICE POWERFUL SUN RAYS. THEY MAY NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT WE FEEL INSIDE. BUT WHAT MATTERS IS AT LEAST I AM STILL THINKING ABOUT YOU CURRENTLY AND IT'S DRIVING ME NUTTYYYYYYYYY! asshole. A S S H O L E.

2005-11-26T18:00:00.000+08:00

FOLKS! it's been A WHILE, yeah! first thing first. THANK YOU RYOUKO FOR THE NEW TEMPLATE! i wouldn't even be bothered to change it if you didnt do it for me. THANKS :D yeah man! O LEVELS IS BLOODY FREAKING OVER! pardon the language. BUT IT HAD NOT BEEN A VERY PLEASANT EXPERIENCE! actually it's over quite long ago. i'm just TOO damn lazy to blog. lost my motor to blog, i guess. wheehaaa..

okie dokie. yesterday was grad night. HEH HEH. saw a lot of pretty pretty people! AND I TOOK A PIC WITH MR LIM :D muahahaha. and i had to take about 56486907746 pics with miss azlin before a nice one appeared. HEEHAAAAA. dazzling. OH! wah! MUST COMPLAIN AH! the freaking waiter serving my table took away my shark's fin away before i had eaten finish just because i was somewhere meagling with people. HIGHLY ANNOYING AH. *&^%$ AND I SERIOUSLY THINK THAT AFIZA SHOULD HAVE WON MISS CRESCENTIAN! HRMPH!

anyway, because of this grad night, i've been shopping for 3 days in a row. SUPER grueling. and every crook and cranny that i turned to, this sign board that reads DANIEL YAM appeared! so much so that i refused to give this yam yam guy business. HEH. this night had also DRAINED me of my life savings. wah. ultra pathetic. i left 2 bucks in my wallet right now. and a 10 bucks heeren voucher that my table won at grad night. HEH HEH. went around and took pictures with the whole world! WHEE HA.

zhixin looked pretty! wahahah. and GRACE had a 1st century bally ear rings. hahahah! ohhh.. too much to say. PEOPLE AROUND ME WERE SO ELEGANT! and i still have problems balancing with heels. IRRITATING.

shucks. i have 2 more weeks in singapore only before i leave for my 2 weeks holiday in india. I AM GOING TO THE MOUNTAIN AND VISIT KASHMIR! it's SNOWING THERE. God shall bless me. 2 weeks is way too long. babooooooooooooon.
ok. BYE FOLKS. i'm off to visit lalaland.

2005-10-28T12:58:00.000+08:00

did you see the freaking big burger king yoda statue on the news? damn. why doesn't it belong to me?
shucks. only left a few more days to Os. i HAVE TO BE MORE DISCIPLINED.

2005-10-14T21:38:00.000+08:00

well. the school term, my life in crescent ended earlier than i had expected. somehow it feels like i had not laugh enough, play enough, bond enough. it was all over too soon for me to accept. apart from all the laughter and jokes, it simply sucked that all good things had to come to a closure. oh man... BUT don't fret, don't fret, we still have many many things coming up. coming close is our long anticipated o levels. HEH. then there's grad night.. and god knows what's gonna come up. wonderful marvellous 4s2. imprinted deep down within me :)

thou i stepped into this class feeling grumpy and all sorts, I TRULY TRULY ENJOYED MY DAYS THERE. because this class took away all those laosai feelings and they were replaced with endless joy and laughter. people brilliant, teachers brilliant, environment brilliant. everything, simply brilliant. the dirtiness had already became part of me. HEEE. i can live with it :P i've forged life-long friendship bonds. met all sorts of FUNNY people! wahhhhhhh. so sad so sad. i guess that during the farewell assembly, reality didn't struck me then. and now, it striked full force. annoying. sigh. one doesn't have to cry to express her utter sadness.

ryouko has succeeded to write the most MOST touching letter to me. simple but nice and ultra meaningful. almost drove me to tears.WAHHHHHHHHH. hers was cool. it came INSIDE a balloon. i had to burst the balloon to read the letter (: thanks! everyone of you made me so guilt striken for giving such a PATHETIC gift. and on top of all, I DIDN'T GET TO FINISH WRITING NOTES! and sooooo, i ended up owing a thousand people their gifts. sob. zhixin gave me this super elaborate jar thing. AHHHH. and EVON inspired me with her mega chim quotes. i should do something about EVERYTHING. THANKS EVERYONE WHO POPPED A LITTLE (and for zhixin's case, BIG) SOMETHING for me! i'm extremely touched. I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU. ok,i shall build up on my $2.10 savings. ultra pathetic.

since farewell is over, it signifies that O LEVELS is just round the damn corner. and so, i'll announce that my next updating session will be after the BIG O. ALL THE BEST 4s2!! AND TO ALL MY BUDDIES OUT THERE! blesssssss ya with the force of God. and yoda! heeeeeee. till then, take care :)

2005-10-08T11:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. wanted to satisfy my stomach with mee rebus. HAH. had the sudden craving. BUT that freaking stall didn't have MEE REBUS! had to settle for mee goreng. haha.. oh well. it tasted alright. i had a hard time ordering.. hard to understand what the indian woman was talking because she didn't understand me first. HAH :D i've been eating like a cow for the past few days. i bet it is hormonal changes and NOTHING to do with stress and being depress.ok.. had to go school for a pretty useless chem lesson (ON A SATURDAY!!!!). ended up playing with my toy kinder surprise car. heeeeeeeeee..

then.. i reach home and decided to try my luck with minesweeper. and i realise that i have EXTREMELY BAD LUCK! the first box i clicked turned out to be a bloody bomb! how annoying. OH WELL. lifeeee movessss on even if you have bad luck. ok.. i've GOT to be thankful for my prelim results. HAHAHA. although i ended up with 14 pts. and so far i have no idea if i can get into sajc. BUT i got 14 pts (after all the moderation. if not i would have done super badly) and i didn't study much. thank God. thank you. i will study super duper hard for Os. and yes, i will achieve my 4 or 5 pts :P HEE. didn't do my best for prelims so will do my best for Os. you mark my words :)

so much for bad luck, pretty and nice things have been happening to me!!!! actually, is to my friends. hahaha.. it was not luck but by the grace of God i got my 14 points. HEE. OK. GREAT NEWS COMING UP :P ryouko's hamster had given birth to 4 babies!!! HEEE. and the really cool thing is the parents have a HUGE difference in their size. haha.. one is ultra mega LARGE. the other is as small as an eraser. really makes you wonder how they had their intercourse. WAHAHAH. miracle.. ok. splendid news no.2! ZHIXIN IS FINALLY BLOOMINGLY getting her NEW PHONE! after 56475625461754161609 years. no more cranky old cookpot phone! YES. life has been pretty good to me besides the minesweeper. never try to read a computer's mind.

yup. my goal is to get into tjc IF only grace is going. HEH. i'll try for nj too! and if (touch wood, metal, plastic) cannot, i will get into sajc.yupppppppppp.. oh.and please pray that my bro doesn't have dengue. he's sick with a fever. HURRR. back to the land of no life.. yes, i want to score a distinction in amath!

2005-10-04T15:35:00.000+08:00

GROWL. really sad to say.. tmr i'm going to get back my pathetic prelim results. i'm sure it will be so pathetic that i will be crippled by it.OH WELL. all good things come to an end.. maybe tmr will be a booster for me to KICK off my studying regimen.sighhh.. i'm just upset that i've let myself and many many people down. and tmr, i'm gonna act pretty cool. afterall, i got what i deserve eh. as the OLD OLD saying goes. NO POINT CRYING OVER SPILLED MILK. there's already a part of me to WANT to get back the atrocious marks and get on with my life. we don't pause our lives because of tremendous setbacks.

what's the freaking use of tormenting yourself OVER AND OVER AGAIN with what you know no matter how much you bleed would not change. WHAT'S THE POINT of wallowing in self-pity. pick yourself up and MOVE ON. know what you're worth. certain nothings will simply make a person BLOW up for no particular reason. simple words may be said. but SIMPLE WORDS KILLS. and those who do not understand the power of words and actions are simply gorillas.please lah.. for your sake and mine sake. use that one inch of brain to think of consequences of those bloody words and actions. i hate insensitive damn DENSE idiots who are unfortunately made of MUD. there isn't an OUNCE in them that is worth respecting. and it is these people WHO should wallow in self pity. because i pity them for being soooo gorilla-ish. they should know where they stand. jokes ain't jokes anymore when it gets too far ...

2005-09-30T22:53:00.000+08:00

rahhhhhhh! it's finally the weekend. this week is super exhausting for some unknown reasons. somehow, i'm just tired every single minute. right.. i think i'm aging at an obscene rate. SIGH!! bloody prelim results are coming back.. mrs heng was kind enough to announce that 52% of the class failed emath and NONE distinctions. super duper sad. and bio was LAOSAI and PANGSAI jumbo together. hahah! i think i got 8 for my practical marks. must try to enjoy the weekend. you know the saying, live while you can? yeah.. i am living :(

so.. today. NOTHING MUCH LAH. had the adam khoo's booster session with gary. i really wonder what's the purpose of it. -____________________-" aiyah. was very depress and tired during the whole course lah. shity prelims and issues that won't be discussed here. BUT. unknown to them, jiaqi and grace really made my day. during the break, just by talking to grace about some kinda nonsense made me quite HAPPY. hahhaa.. whatever jc she is going, i am going too. I DON'T GIVE A HOOT ABOUT ANYTING ELSE. then, had to leave the course first cause gary was talking non-stop about something unimportant. jiaqi smartly told him that we had tuition. anyway, took a freaking expensive cab to bugis to meet zhixin. also made my day lah :) watched corpse bride. LOUSY PATHETIC SHOW. oh well.. jiaqi and my cash possession combined together was only a pathetic 1 buck. hahaha.. went to long john to watch zhixin eat. but she was kind enough to loan us her cash card to purchase some chips from 7 eleven. HEE.

stuffs to ponder: people who do not treasure your friendship and continuously hurt you time and time again and simply NOT worth your tears and memory space. people who treat you like dogs or cats are worth discarding. people who treat you like substitutes should be BANISHED from your life.
have you ever felt that some people do not deserve all those things you have done for them?

i loveeeeeeeeeeee you grace, zhixin and jiaqi. MY HILIGHT OF THE DAY (:

2005-09-22T20:36:00.000+08:00

HEE. freaking moronic prelims can be stuffed in the underworld :) hahah. i realised i have lots of company for first 3 months since at least 99% of my class AIN'T going for jc for the first 3 months! wahahahha :P

anywayyyy.. i had a really REALLY good time today! HAHAHAH. straight after the DUMB math paper, went to play frisbee :) hahaha. class frisbee. SO COOL RIGHT. hee. changed to captain's ball later. then bloody TOOT. started raining. laladeeeda. we stunk like pig intestines. ANYWAY, proceeded on to lunch at cine pastamania. i was BLOATED like a dead fish. but mingee have a stomach of an elephant so she finished my food. hahaha.. put to a good use :) HEH. then went gallivanting. it was like a class outing! let's see.. there was evon, jiayi, yunxuan, peiting, mingee, jan, jiahui, jessie, jessica, yitian, michelle, shao jian, ling fang, andrea and rachel. WAHAHAHA. andrea and rachel kept on having disappearing acts. ok. WE WALKED AND WALKED. SHOPPED AND SHOPPED! hahah!! i bought a pair of HEELS. LOL. we walked until we got entirely drained out. POOF. jiayi was like a zombie.. heh! had a WONDERFUL MARVELLOUS TIME!

HEEEEEEEEEEH. we act as if THERE IS NO MORE O LEVELS! :P going to yunxuan's house tmr to master the skill of roller blading. WAHAHHA! she's going to be my supportive pillar. then got class chalet!!!! HEH. till sun! whooooooooopee. and monday going east coast to cycle and HAVE ANOTHER ROUND OF SHOPPING! lol. i feel as if i've evolved. WHO AM I? LOL. tue is lady in me. i think i will fall asleeeeep in the hall. HEH.

missssssss sharon goh is gonna give a sex talk for post prelims activity. HOW INTERESTING! LOL.
THE NIGHT IS STILL YOUNG!
GOOOOOOOOOOOD NIGHT! it's gonna be simply GREAT TMR! :)

2005-09-21T14:30:00.000+08:00

A BOOMING ABSOLUTELY WHOOPING BANGING BIRTHDAY TO RYOUKO!!!!! hahaha. same msg is left on your blog! wahahha! super sweet 16 :)

yawn. i'm sleepy... .....

2005-09-19T12:05:00.000+08:00

sometimes, things may not turn out as you want them to. sometimes, you thrive so hard for what you want, your goals, your dreams, your ambition but you end up without anything.your friends have all left you and your family no longer suppports you.you are left so worn and torn up. sometimes, you look up into the sky with the feeling of utter hopelessness where you think that God had forsaked and you're left alone here to cope with all your own misery.sometimes, you just wished that you were never born. sometimes, you feel as if all these while, you've been running a never ending marathon and you just wish that you can just fall dead on the ground, forever. most of the time, we fail to see where the fault actually lies. what had gone wrong. what can we DO to prevent what had just happened. we fail to understand our mistakes. we fail terribly. but HEY. what is life without constant setbacks? what is life if everything is so smooth going? sometimes, all you have to do is to muster up all your strength and energy, have a good smile. move on.. learn for what had made you fall. stand up.. for as long as you're breathing, nothing is too late (: yup. words from the wise. hahah. MEEEEEEEEEE :P

ohhhhhhhhh yes. chem is over. hahahha.. i created my own copyrighted polymer. DOES ANY ITE NEED A STUDENT? ok. there's one just nearby here. AHHHH. i shall check it up one day. hahaha.. throughout this WHOLE period of erm.. PRELIMS, is it? HAH. i've been having a whale of a time NOT STUDYING. to think that i dare dream of going to TJC. HAHAHAHHAH. joke. almost all the papers i started studying only the day before. to give myself a bit of credit, i started bio 3 days before. and to console my pitiful soul, this is not yet the Os.damnnnn.. how last minute is this. really.. bad habits don't change. shall wake up from this fantasy of mine (: i think i shall start studying for Os, erm.. 4 days after prelims. YEAH MAN.

i think i shall start formulating my first 3 months plan for next year. i'm gonna amused myself at changi beach spying on gay couples. this idea actually came from my brother who had a really entertaining time over there. OH RIGHT. i think he acted as a gay himself. haha.. oh! i received a PRESENT FROM HIM. how nice (: it's a beanie for me to put my handphone. hahhahah.. damn. he called me a freaking NUTCASE. then he started complaining that the beanie is better than a 2 bucks sign i got for him. HEE. and the beautiful sign actually reads 'NO FART ZONE'. quite nice rightttt..

ok. enough about that bozo. right.. back to my 3 months plan. HEH. did i mention that i may be going to INDIA? wheeeeeee! anyone who wants a SARI(?) can place orders with me. heh! then, i'll probably go find a job (in singapore, i mean) and earn my first million bucks! YAYYYYYYYYY. then those smart clowns (my bro would call them smart asses) who got into a jc for the first three months can come visit me after that. HEH (: at least i'll have my bozo brother for company. AHHH. the outcasts of the society. there, nicely crafted out.

DON'T FRET, SINGAPORE. the amount of losers will never run out. you can print that in the future ss textbook. don't worry man. my bro and i will make a comeback for o levels. MY AIM IS TO SCORE 4pts for Os!! yes, we'll put the banana chinese scholars to SHAME. oh HAH. please be mentally prepared. ok.. left physics and e math paper 2. OH yeah.. and bio prac. if they ever make me draw a PRAWN or a CRAB, i shall storm out of the lab. backkkkkk to study! sometimes last minute and miracles work. come to think about it, i've been a last minute doke since i was born. hahahha.. HOPE THIS WORKS OUT and so,I MAY NOT HAVE TO GO TO AN ITE!

wait. must thank my beautiful:D you're beautiful. as always. FOREVER. omg, you're gay. anyway, thanks beautiful. for your constant encouragement. i'll be a sulky and depress kid if not for my beautiful. hahaha.. OH HO. i'm purchase afro wig for you to be BEAUTIFUL. yeah man!! want some make up? ahhh.. wait till i earn my first million bucks. AHHHHHHHHH. my beautiful HERO. haha. go figure.

2005-09-17T10:46:00.000+08:00

DUM DIDDLEY!! i'm all perked up to scale mount everest. hee.. not that i'm gonna do that. someone just sent me a cock chain mail that i will die in 3 days times. we'll see about that.. ponders. pretty saturday morning. I FEEL HIGH. so sad that prelims is still ongoing. sighhhh.. pretty saturday GONE!!! oh yeah.. zhixin told me that she is gonna get a NEW PHONE! finally.. hhahha. this really calls for a celebration eh. her phone is super cranky and she's been saying she's gonna get a new phone since last year. HEE..

HELLO GRACE!!! hahah.. it is such a MIRACLE to see you online :) hahha. ahh.. i tell you hor. my temasek dream very shaky. may not be able to go for first 3 months. what's with the a math paper lah! hahah.. i think i needa seek help from my uncle again. then WHEE!! we can go tgt again! hahah.. oh! thanks for your offer for the bio spelling thing. hahha.. i take your offer up! YAYY. i'll put all my heart and sweat to get into temasek for o levels k. HEE. seeeeee ya!

oh. i have a new dream :) my dream is to travel round the world on a motorcycle. i wanna see the world. if i can't ride a motorcycle, i'll hijack a car. and then, i'm gonna join fear factor. YEAH MAN!!

2005-09-16T14:27:00.000+08:00

let's smile :D today marks the end of a gruelling prelims week. YAYY! well, not to mention that we have some more papers next week. oh well.. i tried being a bit optimistic. but i'm sure there's a pessimistic and sadistic part of us. HEH. right now, i'm in a MOANING mood. feels as if someone had died right now. amath paper was a stack of SOILED paper. believe me, this is the WORST paper i've ever sat for the whole week. and i had geog before that. WHAT COULD BE WORST THAN GEOG? a math!!! biology is another thing. hhahah. i have so many spelling errors for bio. OH HO. if mrs yip marks my script, i'll bet she'll give me a bio spelling test. well now, AHHH. emath. faced a IRRITATING time crisis. THIS CAN'T GO ON!

i've got my reasons to feel suicidal. but i came online for salvation. indulged myself in the beauty of music. chose a few MOTIVATING, comforting and HILARIOUS music. here are four of them with their specialities:

1. Christina Aguilera (Fighter)-
Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

2. Mariah Carey (It's like that)-
Cause it's my night
No stress, no fights
I'm leavin it all behind
No tears, no time to cry
Just makin the most of life

-oh yes. friday night. IT IS MY NIGHT. making every second count :)

3. Black Eye Peas (Dum Diddley)- THIS SONG IS AWESOME!!! hahah :) fergie's voice is marvellous.

4. Mariah Carey (When you believe)-
There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles, you can achieve,
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe.

HEY- i wish you'll wake up man. you looking at the days drift by really irks me. somehow, i don't know why. but i worry for you. man.. i don't want to see you wasting another year. just recently, i saw something that i wasn't meant to see. YOU KNOW HOW I FELT? sigh! but what can i do.really.. i appreciate those times when you were there for me. made me laugh.. disturbing me for the fun of it. although it really irritates me. but HAHA. it was fun. but yea.. treasure your time well. you know i'll always be here for ya. :D

2005-09-08T13:16:00.000+08:00

BOOMING BIRTHDAY LYNETTE SOHHHHHH :) SWEETEST 16!!!

hahaha. i am NOT a day late this time. HEE. grace named the turtle bolster i gave her as mr lard! sick! hahaha :P ahhhh. i've got a LEAKING tap for a nose.. ok. THIS IS SO FAR MY FAVOURITE SONG IN MY LIFE.

Aerosmith- Don't wanna miss a thing

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

Far away and dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Well, every moment spent with you

Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you, babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you

Feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together

And I just wanna stay with you

In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna miss one smile

I don't wanna miss one kiss

Well, I just wanna be with you

Right here with you, just like this

I just wanna hold you close

Feel your heart so close to mine

And stay here in this moment

For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes

Don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes

Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah

I don't wanna miss a thing

2005-09-06T16:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST DEAR GRACE :)!!!!!!!! shucks. i hate being a day late. UGH!!!!! LOVE YAAAAAAAAA LOTS!!!! happy sweet sixteen yea?!!! i'll be your friend always till your sweet hundreds!! well.. i hope you see this :)

goodie good. wonderful september hols. OH YES, RYOUKO. i am online. and where are you? hahha.. crap crap crap man. consultations EVERYDAY. sigh.. jiaqi had a cheek to call and tell me that her class didnt have lessons for the WHOLE OF THE SEPT HOLS. irritating :P okok. my newest goal is to CATCH CORPSE BRIDE! oh HO. the characters are quite adorable.

the recent hurricane thing was EXTREMELY horrible!! yup. hurricane katrina. seriously, i think a hurricane should not have such a nice name like katrina. considering the fact that it killed thousands and left many homeless. read the papers and then you will know what kind of devastations it had caused. those left homeless went seeking for refuge in the superdome (a football stadium). BUT NO. they had no peace. mobs of mafia and hooligans went raping young girls threatening lives at gun point. i'm NOT sorry to say. but mr president is crap. holidaying when disaster striked. look at the situation. the whites are all SAFE in hotels or other states while the blacks are left to witness the aftermath. OH PLEASE. looters roam the city freely. the dome was filled with feaces. it was HOT. and people have no water and no food!! really.. those mafias should simply GROW UP. put themselves in the victims shoes. AND LOOK CAREFULLY. FEEL WHAT THEY ARE FEELING RIGHT NOW. have a damn heart, ya?!!!! and mr p may be AGING because he's reaction time is days long.. the place is in utter chaos man. do something, PLEASE. shit man. i look in the papers and i see those dead bloated bodies lying on sidewalks and my heart cries out to them. THE GREAT BIG LOST <--- READ THIS!!

But to my country I want to say this: During this crisis you failed us. You looked down on us; you dismissed our victims; you dismissed us. You want our Jazz Fest, you want our Mardi Gras, you want our cooking and our music. Then when you saw us in real trouble, when you saw a tiny minority preying on the weak among us, you called us "Sin City," and turned your backs.

a paragraph from that site. freako HOOTS. do they EVEN bother? ugh!! this is extremely frustrating. think about it man. it is like a city taken for granted. shit. what does it feel like being able to sleep in comfort? can they remember? those people are deeply traumatized. where is help? where is God?

2005-08-30T17:18:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSIE ZHANG!!! :)

wahhh. how come it feels as if everyday is someone's bday? heh heh. OH! today was wonderful CME prelims! mountain was obsessed over MORAL DILEMA. hahah.. my class is crazy!! everyone was erm.. studying cme?!! HAHAHAH. i almost died. LOL. i threw my cme book away in the end. whee. what's with the freaking HOT weather?

oh, right. i was pondering over how my life in this school is ending. wahhh. SOB. evon and i were thinking.. how we will miss all those jokes and humourous criticism. ultra depressing. 4 years man.. besides studying, i've learnt a lot. most memorable! in crescent, my CME lessons with MR CHAN! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH. he made me sweep the floor and wipe the windows!!! LOL. and the time he said IDIOTS in front of me. come on man.. we're not that bad. LOL. hey! after all, i got an A for my CME. hee.. can say that i've grown up quite a bit :) oh yeah! and that day.. grace and i got double BOOKED! LOL. we were making a racket in the lib! hahah. laughing our heads off. and the lib glared at us! and decided to book us. LOL. and so happens miss chia just had to walk by! HAHAHAH. so she also decided to book us. and yes, WE WERE STILL LAUGHING. HAHAHAHHAHA. and yea.. Jan's blog reminded me. HAHAH. miss chia wanted to call grace and my parents AT THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH. i assume that we were making lots of noise!!! HAHAHAH. OMG. it was hilarious. mannnnnnn.. my heart bleeds to see the year ending.

yea.. so many things i wanna talk about.. how i entered my new sec 3 class. all depress and stuff cause my other classmates ended up in a different class. WAH. hahah. OH WELL. things didnt appear so bad after all :) having lessons in the temp block. and sharon goh chased me and Jan to the windows for lessons!! LOL. those days.. NONONONONONONO. don't let this year end. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

gawdddddddd..

2005-08-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

BLOOMING BIRTHDAY TO JOYCELIN AND JESSICA!!!! yea man! BE MORE MATURED (joyceline)!! :D wahah!!

whooopee (: haha. penny ang is gonna TREAT me to a place of my CHOICE! wahaha. i mentioned crystal jade and she was like "yeah, SURE!" hahah!!! and!! that horrendous (extremely) miss azlin went to announce to the WHOLE world something (HURHUR) to TARNISH my reputation! RAH!! i'm in a murderous mood now. HRMPH. :D

all right. this is bad man. not been revising and doing much. haha.. i realise i needa improve on my manners. hahaha.. i saw mdm kartinie today and i went.. "aaaa.aaaa!! MDM KARTINIE!" wah siao man. luckily she has a sense of humour because i had a feeling that she was going to castrate me or smth. SCARY.

sigh. today was quite sad lah. cause miss ang lp bought some erm.. pastries (is it called this) for us. somehow felt like i didn't deserve it. like i've disappoint her. shit lah. i'm working hard for my other subjects. RAH RAH RAH!! the chinese results really dashed my confidence quite a bit. sometimes at certain time intervals, it felt kinda lousy. OH WELL. life goes on. haha.. it's going GREAT thou. days are FUN AND AMUSING. people around me are super comical. LOL. yea.. so much so that i get home feeling all DRAINED and DEAD. haha. well.. it's partly because of all those super duper annoying MOCKS. stupid things. meant for MOCKING our intelligence.

to those depressive out there (food for thought): AH HAH. man.. life is NOT too long. it is simply TOO SHORT. why not live each day meaningfully rather than sulking in a corner waiting for death to befall you. that's what i used to do, man. crossing the road in anticipation of a car dashing towards me ... ... yea. some may be depress over their studies. i'm not saying that it is wrong to be depress over this. BUT. think about it, yea.. a qualification is it as important as your love ones around you? why get depress over studies and affect those that care for you? in fact, a person's character and attitude towards life is much more important. one has to carry an optimistic outlook. begin each day with a cheerful heart. know that THIS DAY, IT IS A NEW CHANCE TO CORRECT ALL WRONGS. yea.. use it as an opportunity to improve relationships. say HELLO to someone you never talk to before.. at the end of the day, look back, fall into bed with a smile and NO TRACES of regret. hope this get you well (: know that people around you care and they will support you unconditionally. if you don't have one, come and find me. muahaha!!

hahha.. just felt like writing some logical stuffs (: yea man.. i've been touched by lots of human beings around me. it is time i pass my blessings. wonder how i can be smiley and not cranky all the time? haha. yea.. it's the works of the angels :)

2005-08-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

A VERY WHOOPING BIRTHDAY TO MISS LAI JIAQI!!!!!! wheee. and to GRACE'S DAD!!!!
paiseh ah! for being one day late (:

something is wrong with me today man. i was doubting myslef. getting irritatable. simply felt that i could never live through this year. it was HORRIBLE. whatever happened to my super high self-esteem. my heart was bleeding man.. and i felt that i can do never do a single thing right. for the first time in a billion years, i felt lousy. thoughts were racing through my mind. it was a mixture of a math and really ugly thoughts. it was really a nightmare. then, my bro played the 'when yo you believe' song. and i thought of the motivational course and i got all swelled up.

i started thinking about the beginning of life. how HOPE was given to me. my wonderful bro. how could i live without his interference in my life. i was born with too much pleasures. i read about the freaking situation the african kids are in. man.. how i took things for granted. the grains of rice that i wasted. the priceless education that i receive. i gained back my self-belief because i am constantly gaining support from all those around me. friends, family, everyone. they were the ones who made me belief in myself BECAUSE they started believeing in me first. my bro once said. friends come and go. saddening. but it was friends who gave me back confidence. friends who gave me the support that i required. i got myself thinking again. amid all the whirlwind of thoughts. i thought of all the people in my life. how fear had gripped me daily because i fear that i will miss the opportunity of saying what i really want to say to them. how i have NEVER ever shown my gratitude to them.

zhixin, it was the words in your blog. that caught me. i would like to dedicate this entire paragraph to you because you had showed me the true meaning to life. you can never imagine how many countless lessons that you have taught me. in the past, i thought you were interfering in my life. but now, i thank you for interfering in it. because if you never did, i won't be who i am today. words will never ever be able to express all that dwells within me and my utmost gratitude to you. you once said that i'm a very private person. conservative, maybe. but as the years had gone by, you have already turned to a 'key' that unlocked my deepest. all those up and down times. had already made our friendship more endearing. from the deep and most sincere part of my heart, i love you, man. you're the pillar of strength in my life because you always give the most logical advice (:

to the rest of the world, even though i never dedicate a paragraph to you, but, please know that i loveeeeeeee all of you. your paragraphs will come soon. i'm working on them (:

2005-08-16T17:00:00.000+08:00

this life it's too short. can't say that i wasn't disheartened by my chinese results. but recently, i have gain a different perspective of life. treasure all that is around you. let them know that you care. adam's khoo course was simply splendid. my life was transformed. i never saw the importance of my parents before. life was a total HOOHEEHA. my mom was always there to comfort me. saying that she doesn't care whatever my results will be as long as i tried my best. and my brother is marvellous. i remembered one night i was crying like mad. and he was just there. he stroked my hand and sat up the whole night with me. my teachers who had to tolerate crap from me all the while. thanks for not giving up hope on me. esp miss goh. i know i have pissed her off a zillion times.. yet, she did not outcast me and continued guiding me. my relatives who offered me a place to stay so that i can concentrate on my studies. yea.. and my friends. WHOA. an awesome bunch. many BIG thanks to grace and zhixin who had been through my many moods. and for accepting me for who i am. you guys may not know it.. but you have brought me hope, strength and laughter in my dark days. sec 2 was crap. and they liven up the crap. yea.. zhixin, grace, jiaqi and lynette. thanks a bunch.

this year 2005 have been the best year for me. this class is superb! i love 4S2 man. teachers are great. WHOOOPEE!! hahaha. and not to forget 2S3'03. 7A1s!! here we come.!! those who had not done as expected in their chinese, just remember that studying is not everything. it's your character and attitude that matters the most (: that's what i thought when i received my results. HHAHAH. call it self denial. i think it makes sense. strive for better results!!!

oh ya.. mrs heng was very nice today. she told me she have confidence and faith in me. THANKS MRS HENG! haha.. i will live up to your expectations. yea.. chinese is just crap. WHEE.

2005-08-07T18:57:00.000+08:00

how i absolutely love this world (: haha. my beautiful, wonderful marvellous friends who made this day so cheerful and SPLENDID!! yea.. and not to mention, special. HEE.

in no particular order
thanks to zhixin, jiaqi, cyn and jan da ma for the super filling lunch at fish and co yest. HEHE. it was fanastic.
thanks to grace for your lovely company and the ultra cute pig with its underwear. yea.. and the mega meaningful letter with the hard disk. love ya loads (:
thanks again to zhixin and jiaqi for that super duper cute snoopy!! haha. and especially that freaking pervertic key chain which i really like it a lot! haha!!! love the both of you to BITS AND PIECES AH (:
thanks to evon and jiayi for the "cat" thing ah! HAHHA. it scares me in the night!!
thanks to yuexin and joyceline for the water bottle and that horoscope bear thing. hahaha. the packaging seriously cracked me up lah! HAHA. -inside joke. LOL.
thanks to my VERY NICE BROTHER who wished me a happy BIRDIE day at 12am. HAHAH. nice company thou.
thanks to all those who flooded my inbox from 12am till now (: zhixin, sophia, ling fang, cynthia, rachel loh, nas, peiting, jeannette, jiaqi, natania chue, miss azlin, jan da ma, grace yew, evon, mingee, yunxuan, yiyuan, shaojian...
most importantly, thanks to God who brought all these simply gorgeous people into my life!! thank You!
thanks to those who brought laughter into my life. thanks for just being in my life (: AHHH.
LOVE you guys! HEHE.

ahhh. by the way, my relatives totally hates me. haha. they ignored my existance lah! LOL. and my dad did not utter a single word to me. how sad.. oh well. the sadness was overtaken by happiness later on. WHEE. must say i totally enjoyed myself today and yesterday. pity grace had to leave early yest. ahhh..haha.. i love this world!!!!!! including my cocky brother. YEA!! everything comes to an end.. sob. nevertheless, the memories are forever etched in my brain and my heart. HEE.

madden with joy.

2005-08-02T18:49:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry. i swear that i'll be serious from now onwards.
my insensitivity had caused great harm. and suddenly, this world seems so void of love. god. i'm exhausted from every freaking thing that i've been doing. i'm chasing the unreachable. stupid wild goose chase. its time that i settle down and face the fact that freaking prelims is coming and my grades are deteriorating. damn. no more playing a fool. and no more talking to teachers as if they are my friends. a miss is a miss and a mister, a mister.

a frown will be permanently etched onto my forehead. people can't take jokes. singaporeans are so serious that they don't possess a single percentage of humour. that's the lesson that i've learnt to do. my own words had acted against me.
god may have make me pass my bio this time round, but i know i won't be so lucky next time round. i hate this school's lifestyle.

now, i've to do the most sensible thing that i've done. i will vanish from this face of the world. yes, no more net for me.

so, goodbye blog. i don't like to write anymore. my interest had been robbed away.
i hope i'll come back soon.. but first, let me make a mark for myself.

2005-08-01T20:47:00.000+08:00

haha. i have this comic book in my cardboard. you wouldn't want to hear the title of the book. HAHA. bloody book is called banana man! HAHAH. never knew i had such a book. how interesting. hahah.. andrea commented that my blog has lots of onmomatopoiea(?). although she doesn't know what that word meant. whee! haha. a math was total crap! haha. penny ang was acting cranky about this humongous ship being washed to sentosa. yada yada yada. THAT JAN DA MA WAS MAKING A FOOL OUTA ME! oh. groan over the failure of relative velocity. SOB. i had to go and draw a stupid velocity graph on the board and i got it all wrong! HAHAHAH. man. its not supposed to be funny.

yea.. then stayed back in school for self revision. totally failure. haha. due to our extreme hunger, da ma and i went mad for food. went to call some wierd pizza pazza crap! quite cheap ah. although they took an hour to appear! my stomach had already corroded to become DUST. hahah. spent most of the time eating. YEA!!! i broke the high score for submarine in yunxuan's phone!! haha. jan just keeps dying. LOL.

OH! haha. just now my bro and i were watching that indian central show! HAHAHA. then this freaking woman was dancing and singing with this man (around a tree, of course). guess what?!!! she was singing about how a waterfall can flow in between her breast! AHAHAHAH. i almost died. HEHE.
right, shall not fool around now. haha. had been blogging profusely for the past few days. time to write a speech for fuming miss goh (: RAH!

2005-07-31T19:24:00.000+08:00

interesting. my bro's friends are getting married! yea.. and the girl is only my age. WHOA. she got herself bloody PREGNANT. imagine. another one is in pending to get married. and when i was out with him today, he showed me a les couple downstairs!!!! haha. my neighbourhood is kinda amusing. and he was mouthing "i hate lesbians"! wah. had to tell him its the society norm already.haha..

2005-07-30T21:56:00.000+08:00

HAHA. read zhixin's blog. LOVE IS WHEN LYDIA IS AROUND! HAHAHAH. god. what is love? haha. not worth my pondering just yet.

unproductive man. amath was E-YA-E-YA-OHHHH. spent 4 hours understanding relative velocity. the millenium classroom really smells of urine! YUCK. so much for doing 30 questions. was so annoyed with amath. went for lunch at breeks!! whee.. GOSH. my stomach almost exploded ahh. freaking full. the whole thing was quite jolly. HEE. now i owe evon money! wah LAO. sob.

AHHHHH.so many no life things to do. must seek consultations soon. AYE. oh! my old com is FIXED! hahha. my dad made me exasperated TODAY AH. he dumped the whole BOX of it on my table. occupied the only space on my table!!! then he shouted at me for minor things. oh well oh well. got used to it. books are splattered all over the table. AIYAH. i'll declatter it some other day.

right. i left my physics text in school and i have a bloody test on monday! and there's also bio test on that reproduction crap. OH MAN. sometimes i wonder if EATING your text makes you wiser. sighh.. then, only people with a low IQ does that. sighh.. i'll disappear now and do some productive stuffs. blogging is a waste of time. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

2005-07-29T21:31:00.000+08:00

wheeee. the world comes alive at night (: night study was kinda fun. i actually gained some knowledge on relative velocity from miss elaine chua! WHEE. miss ang had been going on non-stop and blah. i don't understand a single WORD she said. oh well oh well. oral was hurrhurr. joke joke. hahah! quite entertaining. enough about school. not very amusing. HEE. i like amusing stuffs. L O L.

here's an amusing fact: my house had been home to many exotic pets! hee (: once, my bro brought home a scorpion!!!!!! it unknowning died. mysteriously death. we thought it was moulding, shedding its skin. and the next time we know, it was immobile for weeks! it just DIED. how sad.. haha.
its friday. and i've to gain my life BACK. a math tmr in school. HOW TO GET MY SOCIAL LIFE BACK?!!! school had ruined my social life. BLAH BOO BAHHHHHHH!

2005-07-28T20:50:00.000+08:00

i had only 2 hours of pathetic sleep last night thanks to yunxuan. haha.. i almost fainted when i carried that humongous dictionary to school.i'm in the mist of declattering my room. today mass dance ah. so dizzy. THEN HAD PE. that pervectiv dance. i almost did faint. hahah.. oh! sorry eh.. g and xin. haha. i couldn't help it but, i woke up late. hee. and surprise surprise! i didn't fall asleep in ANY LESSONS! and i'm fully wide and energetic now. i feel as if i could climb mount everest. HEE HEEE.

hahhaa. someone said i talk like a gangster!!!!!!!!!!!!!! amusing. HAHAHAHHAHA.
i've got to talk about john the house's praying mantis. john is MAD! its ferocious and disgusting. can you believe that i once said that JOHN is cute? yuck yuck. now it eats crickets like eating drumstick. and its stomach looks as if it is gonna BURST. hahah. my bro still loves it thou. as long as it stays in his room, i don't care if one day he decides to bring a python home. john is my pet. and i have grown to DISLIKE it. yuck. every night, i will hear crickets CHIPPING violently. poor thing. they could be dead any moment now. oh my, what have you done, john? hahha. actually, i think its a female. it has a BIG butt. LOL.

2005-07-27T08:45:00.000+08:00

heh heh HOOO. i love a brand new day. i really thought my head was gonna be an explosive mechanism and splurt out its seeds. i'm elated, jubilant and to put it simply, freaking happy. when i looked out of the window, i realized that my house has a splendid scenary. LOL. and everything was spoilt when i visited yunxuan's blog and found out that prelims is in 45 more days! sob.

2005-07-23T22:19:00.000+08:00

since uploading photos is such a chore, people who wants the speech day photos which i took for you all can fix an appointment with me and i'll send it through msn, somehow. its no my fault that imagestation doesn't like me. RAH.

HAH. speech day. horrendous food. and the fabric was crap. hee. drew a holeys-ke-moley. and took lots of pictures too(: hahah.hectic hectic. went queensway after that. stupid cab man. i think he just migrated from china. HRMPH.
oh! and the star of the day - CONGRATS TO ANG PEITING the pong HEAD who got that WOW WOW prestigious award. lim something something award (: HEHEHE. too bad no cash included. you're great man.

to: you-know-who-you-are.
HEEHA.. do you know how glad i was to see you online?!! and how shock i was when you talked to me first? hahaha!! you're funny. your girlfriend is cute too! HAHAHA. i hope you like mr dog (: see ya soon, dude. and i like your WIERD hairdo. its unique to a certain extent. BYE!

2005-07-22T22:58:00.000+08:00

what a day. what a day. i think a teacher is pissed with me. LOL. peiting, yunxuan and i stayed for the night self study thing. sigh. i think i'm plagued with guilt now. SHE DID NOT REPLY MY SMS. oh shucks. but it was quite fun staying back. had lots of coke.

oh, i'm somehow looking forward to speech day (: hehehe. by the way, interesting news.. zhixin's hamsters gave birth. THOSE YOUNG ONES which i think is barely 4 months old. they are super FERTILE. LOL.

2005-07-18T18:34:00.000+08:00

Good Lord, he still smokes!!!
sigh sigh sigh. i'm just shocked. oh well.. after having starved john for 3 days. it is now happily chewing on crickets which totally grossed me up.at least john is having its food. damn. i don't even know if it should be a john or mary.

harry potter is thrilling. HAH.saddening, indeed. oh right.bacause of the book i've ended up being in debt. got lots of homework NOT DONE. not to mention my e math holiday thingy. LOL. and to stupid image station is EXTREMELY IRRITATING. let me try that bucket thing. FEEFOO!

2005-07-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

john, the praying mantis, flew into the bathroom at 6am in the morning. john DID not leave the bathroom. it was crawling on the toilet bowl when i came back from school. and john ended up as the house's pet, in my brother's cage. that's the end of mr john, the house's praying mantis.

i had the same dream and the same vision again. the blue and greenish waters at both sides of the florida, key west, 7 mile long bridge.the bays of the miami beaches. the seagulls and pelicans. oh God. how i miss that place. the southest most part of america where the sunset was spectacular. i almost died seeing the breath taking view. it literally took my breathe away. i felt as if i could live there for the rest of my life. for 2 years and i'm still reminiscing about it. yes, this is my dream. to buy a house at florida, key west. oh yes, leave all my troubles and whatsoever here. dump it here. everything.

i love the place where you live. i love it thou i can't see it. i just wanna be there.

2005-07-13T18:11:00.000+08:00

LOL. L O L. we took "class" photos! HAHAH. i was SOLELY tempted to post mountain's BIG BIG head here. haha. h i l a r i o u s.i was all hot by the end. ZHIXIN'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING!! roar. RAH. REEH. haha.. looking forward to it. cause there will be CELEBRATIONS! whee.. and harry potter is coming out on that day! haha. we're celebrating one day earlier. sweet sixteen :D teoly TOE! gonna collect harry potter with that bird jiaqi and xinxin. HEE. anticipating.. finally i have something to look forward to :)

today chem lab was ultra depressing. i think all of my experiments failed. hahah! OH! HAH.whee. i smelled of chlorine after that. it was disgusting.

look at my face. i'm exhausted with joy. i had tried my best. and i'm tired of trying. i've stopped for a day and i saw bliss and its plastered all over my face :)
i'm never gonna try to make myself more pleasing to you. i've got enough. it can't go on.what you've said, i will always remember.and your tone is what i will remember for life.
move it. shove it. HAHAH. laugh it.

2005-07-09T12:45:00.000+08:00

guess what? haha. the a math clan which consists of yunxuan, evon, peiting, jiayi and me went to have breakfast at mac. haha.. THEN. we popped by the play ground to have a swing. HAHAHAH. it was totally unglam.peiting had heart attacks when she goes too high on a swing. and yunxuan DOESN'T know how to swing. wahaha!! jiayi was busy taking atrocious shots on our unglam-ness. LOL. then evon and i have a whale of a time playing the flying fox. LOL. we all got stucked in the middle. and i'm a lousy pusher.hahaha!! evon went round and round and round. then the clan went to attempt to ride the merry-go-round where we had to peddle to make the thing move. the seats were super cramp. we practically had to STUFF ourselves inside. heh. BUT the thing refuse to budge! so some of us had to go down and push it. HAHAHAH. i was pouring like a water tap.

the worst part- we went to sit on those springy things which bounces front and back.and asked a woman to take photo of us. another woman got a SHOCK when she heard that we were sec 4s! hahah!! oh well. child at heart. by the time we left, i was totally soaked and we were extremely late. LOL.

another thing, the millenium classroom smells like urine! gross. fortunately we were doing out a math in the lib. HAH. i was totally unproductive. mountain came and annoyed me. HAHAH. oh well.. i invited her to annoy me. heh. ridiculous day.

2005-07-08T20:59:00.000+08:00

thick skull. wahahah. i screwed my new term resolution of going home straight after school. went long john for lunch with a bunch of monkeys. who ate chicken and fish. haha.. good ending for the week as today's lessons were extremely extremely boring. and i had a heart attack going home with evon. she mocked me again. AGAIN. i'm supposed to be her lucky charm. wahaha..

there's bloody a math lesson tmr. look at my face. ROAR.

2005-07-06T19:03:00.000+08:00

hahaha!! oh, what a light-hearted, fearful day. LOL. smile, you're on candid camera!! you know, i think i'm on the verge of a breakthrough. goose goose. and i made mountain pissed today. heh. OOPS. hail me. AND, i was mocked by evon for the whole day. MOCKED. rah!
another lit assignment. when is it gonna EVER end?! BLOOMBERRANG

2005-07-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

whee.- today had my last amath tuition. then went to the ICA/SIR building with g cause she wanted to take id photos.pathetically, the damn building was closed and we forced entry into the building and got chased out by an indian secruity guard.seriously.. do we look like illegal immigrants? even if we are, we won't be that brainless to walk straight into the SIR.mad case.

i did meditation today to achieve the state of emotionless.haha.. i wondered how sucha lala person could metamorphose into sucha RAH person.my wish for armaegaddon's day to arrived, my secret desire to flung myself in front of a lorry.sitting on the bus waiting for it to crash. i meditated on it. and now, i think -fucked it-. i've achieved the state of the dalai lama in meditation.

according to the bible, God has a plan for all of us.i'm just gonna dump my fate there, study to the best that my brains can get me and wait for God's plan to take effect. nothing, from today onwards is gonna affect me. nothing.

2005-07-01T23:25:00.000+08:00

fear bites you.
fear creeps on you
fear is an obstruction
fear is an obstacle

i'm fearful. shucks. my self-esteem and ego has been thoroughly crashed.i have 0% confidence. i have to go for therapy or counselling or hymotism.how the world do you spell that word. oh, whatever. i don't like it.. i have no faith in myself that i might as well not be human. i see my future as a nun. oh darn. the church may not want me.

i need serious help before i kill myself of thinking so LOWLY.then again i'm talking crap.

2005-06-30T20:38:00.000+08:00

my attempt to cheat mrs heng has failed. now i've to do all those units that i skipped. i never knew she actually flips through homework. first week of school and i'm exhausted.totally washed out.. tomorrow's bloody youth day celebration and THEY ARE COLLECTING MONEY! mad. i, myself is is a desperate need for cash. damn. i'm in sucha foul mood that i may just strangle anything that comes in my way. i don't care if its a frog or goat. die DIE die. first class sadist.

my lit is in a mess. oh, how i hate it. how i wish that I NEVER EVER TOOK LIT. then again, i'm dreaming. i don't know how to analyse stuffs and when the writer is writing in a happy tone, i will say he's a pessimist and doesn't like blah blah blah.. i'm envious of those who hate dropped lit. so envious.. ! ! ! ! !

somehow, i feel that i never knew you. oh shit, i have to do bio tys by tomorrow. HAH. plants and human reproduction. wow.

2005-06-17T12:32:00.000+08:00

gone till further notice.